Ma blog

grr

2011-08-13T22:38:00.003+08:00

say watchu wanna say.
cant blame ur family members saying me all types of stuff.
knowing who started makin stories twisting it and turning it is enough.
laen tak perlu.warning noted =).
truth will prevail.hanya tuhan yang menentukannya.
dont have to say nomore.asltw.

well folks

2011-07-16T21:57:00.003+08:00

Guess theres nothing left to update la..
usually just update ma feelings in ma valentine diary..
well its OUR diary supposingly..
ntahlah...
fight,jealousy,doubts,due due lah prangai mcm sundal.
yea ma fault to maki u,i know.u too did the same eh.shouldnt have but uve made me so upset to a point of a friend.well tkpernah ku sangka,sedalam ini rasaku padamu.
kaulah penembus cintaku.
tskk and its a good thang ehh.
i aint gonna say SORRY FIRST no matter what..
i didnt waste ur TIME n BILL/PEP8 n all..
oh well lets just see how long u'll drag till tuesday and we'll see what happen next..
i know whatchu said is outta anger,imma let it pass..
so have i.done.
gdnite swtdreams sleeptight,ilya imya n itya.
mwah mwah mwaaah.n fer the basi,gdmrning mwah.

stress

2011-04-08T19:21:00.004+08:00

omg la..
oh great..
s.o.l 14days..
okay la tu that one ma mistake..
haha!
oh well..
gotta get back to ma old body during these 2weeks..
heh mane nak dapat org mcm giny bleh minom,kwua uat everyday job mcm biase?
guess ma luck for being honest la kan..
oh well..
still..
cmon man..
stress lately,
hmm..

here goes..
i got 14days stay in,(so called la)
14days to go course during the 7days stay in after for automation certificate thingy,
next month for 6months course for electrical cert,
and mummy want to put me on motor license for 3months..
adoy..
ape ni?!
i got ma car license da cukop kan..
though having another wouldnt be a problem but still..
time management la kan?
oh yea i can handle it..
just cant brag bout it too much..
nanti obsessed..haha
chill..

fy,u take care la kat sane..
da tawu saket..lagyk nak overwork urself..
sheesh!
i dnt wanna lose u okayh..
ur the pillar of ma strength or ive given up on love.
marcell n all,everything u knew ^^..
yg tahtawu naseb uh..
muntah darah,though i may seem like idc,its not that okayh,im just bz with work too much..
adoy,ive to clock 200km more,till get ma bonus,
then settle i nye bill fy,
hmm..
dnt worry kayh...
ive seen ur bad side though =P..
had to..
dnt take it to the heart kayh..
else i wouldnt know ur the hypocrite type or not..
hehe ur not and im glad of it.mwah!

yup yup yup,i regret ma ex tuh,
well wouldnt consider her ex anymore,
just another enemy of mine,
maki ma family,menghine ma family,tak sadar diri hypocrite n prangai..ish..***
i still am like before,nva changed,tak maki,sabar,mengalah.
heh thats why before saying others,mirror urself first la seyh!
putting all the blame on me like none of it were ur fault when u actually started it..
ho sey liao!
nak maki ***** je ...
tapi nehmind..
sabar je la kan..
oh wth..
she's so out of ma life.
amin.

mummy!
so kirekan ill be using bike till i ord then car?
huhu!^^
ohh jyeah..
lookin forward baybeh!
before assuming AGAIN,bill almost settle eh..
dnt need ur comment!*****!

ops sbulom lupe,
ily fy,bobok awal tawuk..
hehe..gdnite mwah!

derita merindu

2011-03-27T13:49:00.004+08:00

yo so this is a song i got into quite some time ago..
heh its quite meaningful if ya know the language ey..
sorry for tha late updates folks..
been kinda busy n alota thangs been happenin lately..
i find maself in a stress state often la..

people people..
dont ever judge me when ya know ur only assuming..
cause it aint got u nowhere..
assumption arent facts..
face it!
so please yaw..
chill and think before putting actions into ya own hands..
get the facts right first aight..
standard basic of life..

if ya know tha song do read the lyrics..
enjoy ;D!

L
Kau katakan cinta gunakan akal
Bila aku gunakan, kau yang menyangkal
Bagaimana nak kekal
Kau katakan cinta gunakan minda
Bila aku gunakan
Kau yang tak percaya… bagaimana nak bahagia

P
Maafmu tak bererti, kau mudah sesali
Berulang kali telah kau mungkiri
Manis mulut berjanji terpedaya lagi
Menanti biar terus didustai
Kaulah bahagia (bagiku)
Kaulah derita (bagimu)
Esok lusamu, tak ku kenal lagi engkau siapa

L
Dan aku cuba sedaya upaya
Telah ku usaha dengan sepenuh jiwa
Bagaimana hendak ku lupa
bayangan wajahmu selalu di depan mata
harum baumu masih dapat ku hidu
Bagaimana ingin aku membencimu
Jikalau setiap hari merindu
Sekiranya derita merinduimu itu sebenarnya bahagia..
Aku pilih derita..

P
Kaulah bahagia (bagiku)
Kaulah derita (bagimu)
Esok lusamu, tak ku kenal lagi engkau siapa
Mungkinkah esok atau lusa walau biarpun lama
Akan ku biar tiada, ku tetap kan setia
Entah bila akan tiba sampai jua harimu yang sama
Esok seperti semalaman yang tak berubah
Kaulah tanda tanya… kau tiada titik noktah
Ku dibuai mimpi lena dikejut igau semula
Kaulah tanda tanya… kau tiada titik noktah
Ku dibuai mimpi lena dikejut igau semula

L
Seandainya kau berada di depan mata
Mudah untuk aku berkata-kata
Supaya dapatku melihat seraut wajahmu
Walaupun belum tentu kau mahu bertemu
Apalagi memandangku
Setelah ku turutkan segala kemahuan kau mainkan perasaan
Begitu mudah kau ucapkan terimalah saja kenyataan…
Aku masih terkilan

P
Maafmu tak bererti, kau mudah sesali
Berulang kali telah kau mungkiri
Manis mulut berjanji terpedaya lagi
Menanti biar terus didustai
Kaulah bahagia (bagiku)
Kaulah derita (bagimu)
Esok lusamu, tak ku kenal lagi engkau siapa
Kaulah bahagia (bagiku)
Kaulah derita (bagimu)
Esok lusamu, tak ku kenal lagi engkau siapa

L
Jika kau dapat memahami hati seorang perindu
Baru kau tahu derita hatiku
Jika suatu hari nanti giliran kau merindu
Baru kau ingat derita diriku
Segala yang berlaku bukan kemahuanku
Apa gunanya bahgia
Jikalau bahagia bersamamu hanyalah untuk sementara waktu
Aku pilih derita merinduimu

P
Maafmu tak bererti, kau mudah sesali
Berulang kali telah kau mungkiri
Manis mulut berjanji terpedaya lagi
Menanti biar terus didustai
Kaulah bahagia (bagiku)
Kaulah derita (bagimu)
Esok lusamu, tak ku kenal lagi engkau siapa
Kaulah bahagia (bagiku)
Kaulah derita (bagimu)
Esok lusamu, tak ku kenal lagi engkau siapa*

hmm

2011-03-16T00:02:00.001+08:00

im sick n tired of ur games n ma pretends..
is honesty daymn hard to get nowadays?

lolz

2011-02-25T13:16:00.002+08:00

nothing much in ma mind..
hmm.!.@.#.$.%.^.&.*.(.).
do i really have to do this?
haiz..
jyeah thats all folks..

grrr

2011-02-06T00:37:00.003+08:00

hmm..
hate to be in doubts.
i bet none of you wanted to be in one.
heh..
oh well..
sabar la kan?

hmm well currently kan fy,
i tnga kt lan ni,with haikal..
neman je and mian.
heh but anyway,
ill sleep straight once im hum kayh.
no worries.
its been a long day for u today so get ur rest early.
i know u would.
standard basic jugak,pelokek kiss.heh
naseb uh.
oh well gtg game again.
haikal da bising.
tsk!
that's all folks.
ilya mwah

aaaa

2011-02-04T22:19:00.005+08:00

am i even doing tha right thing with this doubtness?
what are you trying to prove?
am i a material?
am i seperated?
am i falling to the same spot again?
am i just another whom is needed when there's no one else?

oh well,going with the flow aint gonna help.
hmm i do believe in chances,
1st chances maybe wrong,
2nd chances everybody makes mistakes,
3rd and 4th n so on,follow ur heart and learn to trust again.
Gonna clear ma doubts first.

This is something good i picked up when im bored la at hum.
DO comment folks.;)

Dont be in guilt if you ever find yourself walking back into the past..
The only reason why you turned back is because your heart requested you to do so..Your heart won't welcome peace into your life unless you play fair with it..Deal with it so you can live with it*

God have given you the chance to experience the pleasure of love & He have made you understand the meaning of it but He did not always return you the love of your choice. Have you ever wondered twice before complaining? He loves you more than anyone else in this world. He didn't give you him/her because he/she is just not meant for you*

I don't need to travel so far away to get myself to understand the movement of life. Its not the places where you've walked your life at, its how wise & deep you analyse the things around you which matters most*

Its ok to feel bored in your relationship at times so long that you are responsible enough to fix that heart of yours and get back on the track with your partner. Love is not only about entertainment, its definitely more about learning to shape your life with that someone,be it through bitter or sweet*

hakeem-00:57
that's all folks

well?

2011-01-30T20:22:00.004+08:00

well what can i say folks?
love is undoubtedly amazing and invulnerable.
sometimes you just have to let it all out to save urself from being ego.
True love is when it came by itself,
you dont have to try,
itll come in a way that both of you believe in it.
in loving someone,
the truth you cant run away is there will be fights,assumption,lies(j.n),will and actions that can prove words are wrong.
i learned from all these mistakes and are moving on happily with ma loved ones.
dont think as r/s only for a short term,think it as for the future.
itll be a lie if you folks think that r/s are supposed to be always happy.
you will be happy but happier than ever,if you know how to control ur very own r/s,understanding and commitment.
with these,your love become invulnerable.
that's how i came to know that through all the obstacles that we faced and gonna come next,ima still stand and fight for it through all possibilities with the very will itself.
one thing in love i learned the most in,
NEVER be fickle minded,thats how you tend to assume and mistrust will be the outcome.
make up ur mind.
dont always or even think of breakin up or feel like dumping the other party,
that makes you fickle minded.
everything happens for a reason,understanding the other party is important.
after working out is what people always say every fights make you stronger and closer.
its true though,depend on how you work it out.
make sure theres no more mistrust,no more doubts,no more misunderstanding.
everything will work out fine.

all these,
i need to thank my only wify.
for making me realise and learn from all these.
ily dearest fy.mwah

heh

2011-01-19T16:54:00.001+08:00

update later folks..
gtg..
sempat tukar lagu je.

nanana

2011-01-04T10:40:00.004+08:00

na'ah i dont wanna go home..
i have to telupe mileage sheet there..
ergh!
nvm..
gosh whats happenin to me?
everywhere i go and do,semut mesti ade..
semut itam and merah,serangga pon.
at my badan,how?!
wth.
pelik,tapy benar.
at mrt,bus,car,hum,bed,toilet!
wats the meaning of this?
am i gonna be okay?wait,is haikal okay?!
please please ya allah ya tuhanku,
selamatkan lah adiku dan jauhkan dia dari segala musibah.
semoga dia selamat pergi dan selamat balik.
amin.

haish.
please please let him be okayh and safe.
ergh.
ive changed,totally.
i fight for wat i think is right for me,ma future and everyone.
if u think u can interfere,bring it on.
i wont hesitate to crush u down,whoever u are.
trust me be it a guy or a girl.
let it maintain this way.

dnt cntct me and i wont cntct u.
strangers for life.=)
im happy be it good or bad.
curiousity and doubts huh?
jyeah.
cant believe im saying this,but jyeah.
i dnt need u anymore.
its over and done with.
face it,this is reality,no fairytales.
im attched.for what reason u dont have to know,
setia or not u need not know,
even better,why?
never know.
dont it once,twice and the thrice is gonna be the last.
once is everybody deserve a chance,
twice is a second chance,
third?last chance la kkayh.
naseb uh.
what u feel towards me now,
i dnt need to know,if u hate me,love me,miss me,need me and cant live without me?
im double of everything!
trust me its true,u just wont know why.
bye

its true its true u do deserve the best of it to make it hurt,
im the right man babygirl lets make it work.aight?
heh,glad u love that song,-thinking of you
thanks for making me realise,
rather than throwing ma love away,id rather give it to someone who at least tried.
im still a mystery to her,but its okayh.
im afraid that if she knew me,she'll never get to let go of me.
sorry u,

ffs stop it sia,
im not even stmf and flirting u all say i sweet la,cute la,ni la tu la..
tsk!im not even terase!
im getting frustrated ade la!
just being maself ffs.
tc folks

heh

2011-01-03T09:54:00.001+08:00

sat and sun was fun.
family family family.
including ma loved ones of course la not forgetting kan..
too bad in just a day everything fall apart.
dnt know why dnt know how.
let it just be a mystery.
and jyeah.
i knew it gonna happen.
as usual la kan =)
i wont say anything.

heh kkayh been fun la eh kt jb.
otw to sg,nyaris accident.
fuuh awesome la seyh!
horn n perah..
hah thinkin of gettin a bike.
that'll be the later part.
wah so many of my cuzzy changes..
ajar,raudha..
da sec 3 n 4..
going o lvl both of em..
thanks to them i know how it felt like going through n lvl year n stuffs..
still..
studies has got nothing to do in a r/s right folks?
why?cause if that somebody love ya,they wouldnt hold u back on ur studies n future.
heh =)
oh well..
nevertheless..
new year doesnt mean new in everything people..
somethings just cant be changed by just a day..
you wont realise it now,someday you will..
you wont grow in just a day,you dont love in just a day.
im not even scolding you eh..
dont terase..
carryon how you were back then..
i know what has happened before,
so will history repeat itself.
sometimes,
you cant fork out at everything,give up on everything..
you just have to calm down and think of a solution.
how to improve,change,talk.

ma twin left me,
all alone for 3weeks with this kinda problems all over..
family,friends and loved ones.
though his reasons are all shitties,they are still meaningful in the end.
haish i guess i gotta bring maself up again.
come back safely haikal.

Gotta stand up and fight for my right,
fight for my love,
fight for my freedom,
fight for my pride.
Never admit defeat by an egoist.
10:09-keemo reborned

tsk

2011-01-02T21:38:00.001+08:00

nothing ever changes no matter how u want it to be.done.

huhu

2011-01-01T03:54:00.001+08:00

nyahahaha no life,me,mian,fendy,haizam,syafiq,haikal all cs...
lol!
red alert soon..
aha pagi2 bute kejot org kene ikot...
bergabung nye psl la kayh..
heh..
sry fy i kwua malam...
2kete antar kite...
family gathering la..
heh..
jgn marah ye..
cepat tue nanti...
i obey rules kayh no worries..
so jyeah..
im back with ma fy..
family,everything...
back to the way it was...
just a new year...
looking up to a good future for us..
dont overwork fy..
tc always...
gdnite mwah.
tc folks.

hehe

2010-12-26T20:01:00.002+08:00

well what can i say?human sweet mistake la kan..
heh..
so fought with mian,
bruises on ma legs.tsk!
won ma old phone back..
naseb uh!
had bbq n badminton matches..
as usual i own.-__-"
nyahaha!
yaya mcm paham nak menang..kalah jugak..
hehehe..
no kick laarrr..
first time today bapak green light lemme drive to umah aunty pick amizah n foods.
lolz..
balek pek pok pek pok pulak..
adoy..
naseb uh..
so now game jap after meeting mak ju n all..
haha eqa is back!yea!
amin syukur nikmat.
glad their family back together =)

fy owe me an explanation ehh...
grrr..

heh

2010-12-22T14:44:00.006+08:00

well i got nothing else to say but going with tha flow while it last.
just wandering around and got these.

awww

2010-12-20T22:15:00.002+08:00

awww gdnakity nakity night everybody!
heh...nantok uhh...
had a fun day today..
ade pro uh football table game,
grr nehmind im still gettin better ea day!
nyahahaa ill beat u one day u no life freak!
heh..

errrr...
phew naseb rahsia tak terbocor la kan...
naseb uh...
tzzz...
its good to know you got someone to lean on,
someone you can fall for eventually,
dont cry please.
its not worth crying for me.
a lot of reasons for it.
mainly,
you started the fire.
im just being the reborned ME.
na'ah still not gonna do anything.
not gonna say a thing about how i feel,reasons etc etc.
sabar adalah jawapan terbaek!

gtg tata folks.

grrr

2010-12-20T08:14:00.007+08:00

ystdae went karaoke la kan..
aseng and member je turon..
gerek.haha!
mam a&w n ali baba la dey!
tkbes2 mummy n ur menyakat -___-"
its over rite,
hope someone closely related to u r happy bout this!
its wat *** wanted from the start what?
A castle of love to collapsed in a jiffy.
it collapses with fear now,
damn i wished i could say more!
nak maki je aku!
mummy da pesan.sorry folks.

hey i found one song which really caught ma eye when i was karaoking,
sorry tadapat song with lyrics,
it had to be in this version -___-"
its called TABAH-MAZLEELA.

nothing to do with nabihah for the top story eh,jgn terase kayh.

well well...
hmm.
da luda sape nak jilat balek?
heh.
simply why?
because something proves me wrong.
where theres a will,theres a way.

thats one thing i learnt n stand ma ground for.
Jangan pernah berubah has nthg to do with me,
its the totally opposite actually.
try seeing it in ma point of view.
i never did left you, =)
sorry i blogged bout this,
i shouldnt.
just to share with the folks.
dont worry u wont know a thang about u,
yeah u,not me.=)
i dont stalk,i dont talk,i dont waste.
whats gonna happen happen la.
why eh?read below.

over the past few days,
These are what i learnt from all sorts of comments,advices,experience.
NEVER LOVE TO HIDE AND HIDE TO LOVE.
In love,there are two things.
One are Love and the other are Fear.
Only one will win,
Its either Love or Fear,
There's No hatred needed.
I realised ive been fighting for love all these while.
Theres no point fighting for it,
Eventually,love will always win.=)
Imma just stand aside and
Be strong,Head high,Confidence,Self esteem,Honesty,Capability,
"Keemo Reborned"
i dont break their heart,
they break their own heart by their own mistake.
for being too confidence,too trusting,too etc etc..
typically,naseb uh.
heh.
jyeah there are times when u feel u need someone u love the most,
time when someone u love needs u the most,
time when someone loves u and u dont give a damn,
time when someone loves u and u feel damn irritated,
naseb uh,
this is life,
if uve been given up,
the best way to deal with it is to stand aside OR swim!
someone special told me that.=)
jyeah!
swim with the fishes.
there are many fishes in the pond.
bros-08:25
=)

zzz

2010-12-16T00:09:00.003+08:00

so jyeah.
i got to know how to go peninsula la seyh!
finally i get the picture of the place.
explore.
though sesat 3kali.
haha!
alone,independent...
biase jugak.
heh.
brani buat brani tanggung mah.
fun!

adoy besok 4days gonna miss mummy n ma bed.
haish tido pat hutan.
grrr i hate it!
nak chao keng uh..
haha..sat sun dpt balek kan best!
grr.
tsk!
dalah
nak tido uh.
nothing else to say.
heh.=)
gdnite folks

ehh

2010-12-15T16:49:00.002+08:00

tadapat bobokz,
thank you for being so caring mummy.
though all the things ive done to you and all.
adoy.
nehmind.
i know maself.
the old keem is back =)
unafraid of anything.
NEVER TURN BACK
so i aint gonna say anything anymore.
aint gonna even tell why anymore.
aint gonna know anymore.
ive moved on.
=) i love myself!
sape dapat,naseb uh!
who?its a surprise uve all been expecting for.
heh.
hehe

ma only wify

2010-12-15T00:27:00.004+08:00

10months n 5days is where we lasted.
or maybe even more.
Idk but nevertheless
i'm so foolish to not have lied.
u proved ur sacrifices well my dear.
Now im proving mine that im not crazy over u.
i will by hook or by crook get their trust for us
but it needs time.
PLEASE UNDERSTAND THAT
Tak salah knape nak takot kan?
we're not wrong,we met n hide,
for wat?to think of how to fight for our right of love.
its not wrong to love.
ive yet to tell u that i btol2 tknk tipu ur family,or mine ever again.
so im telling u now fy.
yes i salah i jumpe u semunyik2 but i admit it to everyone.
im taking the blame.

i know its all so sudden for u syg.
i didnt mean it to happen so suddenly.
the truth is always the best way especially when ur not in the wrong.
like what u said,ur tired of people judging us,
im fighting for it now.
its ok if ur not helping me.
i didnt ask for ur help in the first place,
i just want u to understand its for the good of us.
im sorry fy for making u take all the blame.
i promised u to be there for u.
i still will be no matter wat happens.
be it good or bad.
im taking all the blame from u now.
Dont worry.
ive got all straightened up now.

Folks,
for the first time in my life,
ive never felt so wrong before,
ive never ever apologies to mummy except for hari raya,
first time ever!
i cried n mintak ampun like im dieing tomorrow.
i nver felt so wrong to make mummy feel like killing herself.
akeem tak sanggup mummy!
tak sanggup!
thank u for being there when i needed someone the most mummy.
thank u for giving me second chance n supporting us all these while.
THANK U FOR EVEN WANTING TO FIGHT FOR OUR LOVE AFTER ALL THIS HAPPENED MUMMY.
Oh u dont have to cut ur finger just to prove that she cant live without me.
i know i cant live without her too.
we're just fighting over emotions for family sake.
for good times n memories,
i will always love you nabihah bte abdul rahim.
ill never call/text u again unless important.
i dont want u to think im desperate n sacrificing alone.
thats why i did this.
im not alone,u know it urself.
if u gave up on our love,
the one we build so strong and high,
its okay,
i understand that u still have a lot to go through,
ur handling alot,but u are nva alone.
im always here with you.
in your heart.
Hate me if u must,
its the easiest thing to do rather than trusting me to deal with this sacrifices to make our life better
im not doing the wrong thing,
thats what mummy said.
i believe that.
dont let our family hate us,
my family will never hate u i promise u that.
let ur family hate me for life,
its okayh.
ill take that blame rather than they hating u.

Sacrifices i made.
take that blame from u,
hurting u but its for our future if u want us together,
make our family peace with ea other and us,
i dont wanna lie anymore,
i dont wanna pretend anymore,
i want the truth,
i cant figure out the truth that you akan lepaskan i tak?
now i know the truth.
you wanted so much to lepaskan me right?
because of tak sanggup tipukan?
u got wat u wanted now,
i will get out of ur life willingly,
without hatred and not tipu lagy.
only the truth.
u got both now,
whether our family approve or disapprove of us,
itu di tangan tuhan.
we are nothing more now,
not a friend,
not a lover,
not a enemy,
A stranger.
sacrifices can never be made single handedly in love.
that would make the other think ur crazy over em.
If u love that somebody so much that chu had to let em go,
what wouldchu do?
if u love someone,u have to be willing to let them go.
im letting u go now,
let me make it clear,
its never because i wanted to.

if love is impossible to ur eyes,
ill prove to everyone that love really is impossible.
I tak merayu untuk u kembali nor will i wait,
it all depends on will.
not just mine but urs too,
i only wantchu to understand the situation,
tc always adindaku
jgn takot kalaw tak bersalah kay syg.
mwuah for the last time
have fun enjoy in life,
dengar ckp mum,sis,brother,
Family always comes first =)
dengan sepenuh ikhlas hatiku
-Muhammad Hakeem Bin Marwardi 1:01.

ergh

2010-12-14T15:29:00.003+08:00

doubts n problems all over me.
im dead but im never afraid of falling down.
thats me.
crush me hard n ill crush u harder,
love me n ill love u even more,
hate me n ill hate u worst,
trust me n ill trust u like nva before,
kill me n i swear ill kill u inside out,
smile at me n ill smile back,
kiss me n ill kiss u like the first time.

dead or alive?
which one is it gonna be keem.
ily fy,tc always mwah

fy.

2010-12-13T07:45:00.003+08:00

fyku sayang
if u'd be reading this,
to let ya know i ade exercise to attend to.
3days 2night.
u tc ati2 kayh.
ity obey the rules.
me too,
i boring i takkan call pompuan lar.
jgn worry fy.
ilyatm imysvm ityatm tawuk.
bukan gilergilerkan eh.
hmm ur sacrifices?
we'll see bout that kayh.
since i ade 3days 2night,obviously 2hari cancel.
but i wanna see ur response otp.
if it was happy,
id be unhappy,
if it was unhappy,
id be happy to atleast know u know about ur sacrifices fy.
well thats it i gtg now starts at 8 la.
slalu last minute giny.
tsk,sabar je lar.
tarok 1day detail tibe2 takde angin tkde ribut 3days amek kaw!
ish.tkpe.
istighfar,
sabar.

gtg bye love you fy mwah.

hmmm

2010-12-12T21:09:00.004+08:00

lets just say folks its all a misunderstand okayh.
everybody deserve second or last chances n treat it as human sweet mistakes..

none of us are crazy for ea other,
we're not at all,
its just that one lesson learned folks,
One sacrifices for the other is NEVER ENOUGH,
it shouldve been BOTH.
jyeah im stupid.
but im not alone.
we're together.
for now n forever more.

ade hal?
langkah mayat aku dulu cause we gonna fight for this love.
no matter wat it takes.
im gonna risk it all.
im trying ma best to trust you again.
i can see ur trying ur best too fy.
but i dont want you to force urself too much.
i wont accept another heartbreak,
itll be hatred from now on.
i can see ur doing the same.
so let the past be the past.
u made ur mistakes,
i made mine.
kembawang la kan?
everything the same.

To know the truth about ea other wrongdoings is hurtful,
yea i know.
naseb uh.
Make sure it wont happen again.
Ity fy.
we moved on,
Nobody wants to see us together
but our heart guides us to ea other.
i aint gonna say sorry to anyone.
im not wrong and im unafraid eh!
and let it be ONE LOVE baybeh!
Short n simple kills the cat la seyh!
heh

hmm

2010-12-10T08:39:00.002+08:00

Once u dont trust a person,u can neva trust em.
-hakeem 5:36

Puaskah kau lukaiku
Puaskah kau sakitiku
Puaskah khianatiku
Puaskah hoo... Sayangku
Di manakah nuranimu
Di mana akal sehatmu
Sekarang kau campakanku
Setelah kau dapatkanku
Reff:
Mungkin hanya bila ku mati
Kau 'kan berhenti 'tuk menyakiti
Sampai kapan aku begini
Terus begini
Terus engkau lukai
Ingatlah saat yang lalu
Saat kau peluk diriku
Tapi kini semua lalu
Kau tega khianatiku
back to reff:

enjoy.

trust is nothing

2010-12-09T17:57:00.005+08:00

pala buto!
puki pey budak!
cibai!
sial!
anak haram!
kanina!
aku tumbok kaw pey muke!
sial step taktawu!
kaw tunggu kaw satu bende salah je,
naas kaw aku buatkan!

aku pecaye kaw sialan!
pala buto skg!
bnyk pey member!
eh aku tak eran ar sial kalaw krane pompuan tu!
pegy mati ar sial!
amek ar sial!
aku takkan PATAH BALEK PUNYE!
ciaocibai!
sial,dari BMT sia!
aku pecaye kaw siak!
kaw pikir aku nak pegy gado pe psl pompuan?
TAK HERAN AR EY!
NAK KAUP SUME KAUP AR SIAL!
NAK LAGIK?
AKU ADE BNYK!
NI KEPERCAYAAN!
TRUST!
PEGY GIMME 5 JE AR SIAL!
THANK YOU you ruined everything now.
=) now fuck off ma life!
PEGI KAHWIN BUTO!
MAIN BLAKANG PEY JANTAN!

alrite finally,
now time to sholat.
tenangkan fikiran.
da lepaskan geram jap.
haish.
lepas satu satu eh.
baek pe.

nyahahahaa

2010-12-09T16:39:00.003+08:00

noob la,
tkdpt tdo!
tpy aku nantok gler la!
degil abes la eh keem.
heh
naseb uh!
da sempot datang balek masi nak push diri.
tak mati pe!
heh

anyway best uh main catching ngan bro.
haha!
nak main lagy uh.
in camp area.kwang3!
giler punye ksiao kite.heh
speed,lagy sket accident,adoy.
twice!
naa'ah tk happy,i gonna catch him this time,
racer =)
off to main catching folks.

dont wanna think bout u till tomorrow syg,
nanak doubts agyk uh.
wat gonna happen happen la,
wat gonna say say la.
tata.tc always

ho sey liao!

2010-12-09T07:14:00.004+08:00

wah i followed ma heart yesterday,
i thought it was only a dream.
but i cant believe it happenned.=)
heh i guess im someone much more than i think i am.
awesome.
its true its true u(me) do deserve the best of it to make it work,
im the right man babygirl lets make it right,aight.
lagu lah.heh
akeem tk kembang eh korang ckp aku makin hansem mentah2 da break.
haha!pantat lu orang,ajak fight.
but i realised a difference in that

n hey,
idk its u or not anymore,i need time until then.
i wont fall again.
cause i aint weak.
knapa harus ku merayu?
knapa harus ku bercinta?
idk idk idk!
people people,ladies,girls stop psychoing or brainwashing me!
i appreciate all ur advice.
thanks a lot.
tk perlu eh smpai tido same2 nak peluk aku mcm bantal.
heh.
kwangasam.
ill follow ma true heart with the real me tomrrow.
patience is a virtue.
bersabar la.
off to detail till 5.30 -______-"
nak tido luhhh!!!!!
ergh!
aku tak suke eyebag!

A song i always actually listen to with much of insomnia.

shit happens again.

2010-12-08T10:18:00.003+08:00

toldcha,
nak tdo kene kacaw agy!
kene kejot agy!
WTF!
give up ah sia tido.
nvm try agy after lunch tkdpt jugak mesti satu camp gua bikin perang!
tsk.

pagi2 pek pok by bapak,
mummy join lagik!
adoy,
heh ma bad i drived wat.
obvious tmpat duduk luper letak alek,
mian tk drive gtu,mine style,
ahaha.
kak min sepak tngn aku lagik?
bikin klaka per.
haha!
naseb uh.

so malam gonna maybe g lagik,nva knows.
ima devil at night nowadays.
degil smcm abes,wakeup la akeem deyh!
haha degil2 bnyk nak jugak.
mcm scandal scandal gtu lol,
sayang sini dear sane,
girls,typical!
tkpaya nak flirt pun.
boleh bace mcm buku uh sia.
tu psl tbleh trust.
naseb uh,
aku pentingkan kawan dulu.
giler dieorang ajak main bola nari,
kaki da krem abes,mane badminton,mane drive,mane bola.
ajak fight uh.
heh bro bro,
lu ksiao ar.
jatohkan hp gua,
aha kan cermin mate pecah,
mcm tk sampai ati aku tkde lagi gtu,
am i changing for e better or e worst?
the real me aint this no heart kinda guy.
ahh f*k it!
is this ma ego?
someone help me?

destroy ego

2010-12-07T23:45:00.002+08:00

i dont get you at all.why?
da buat bodoh tk layan da redha da ni da tu sume!
why our pics are there?
why are you still counting days?
why!
tkmu ade pompuan lain waiting on me or to love?
i dont love em or ask em to wait,up to them not me.
why?!
omg la my one n only supposed to be hubbie is coming back.
stop stop!
bulom tibe masenye!
ur not weak.
get a grip on urself.

i guess love is just crazy fy.
tc always its not time for you to go,
it should be me.i wish.
ya neva know when it hits you folks.
Especially EGO
heh.

So me,
heh crazy la monday.
datang pagy naseb tak baek kene cover bontot orang.haha!
kwangasam paitao last minute!
tsk.
naseb 1h,tpy mcm ****!
aku nak tdo pon tbleh,
da tk tdo bape hari.
adoy.
baru nak alio basi kene kejot detail.
slalu gini.
fckd up man!
even tadapat blog psl org pakai comp non stop.
adoy.
naseb uh.

bas3rd korang ckp aku playboy.
ni uh org baru break blablabla.
aku kaki kan korang.jage korang!
haha!
i dont playboy ehh..
believe it.
no time.
just got to know few folks jer.
kawan ape.i still obey the rules atleast-.-"
toldcha havent 10th kan.asl degil korang!
nak kene rembat pe?
haha hakeem da fanatic balek tawuk.
heh pt camp agy2.
eh budak adf tkmo step big fuk eh,
korang mane pey besar sign on step bagos?
da jealous tkde lesen buat hal tkde ar.
bapak kaw pey road pe?
tsk

currently almost 0000hrs.
tnga game ngan mian jap.
haha bawak lari kete.;)
biase die eh keem!
heh.naseb uh.
lapar la satu ari tk makan,
nk kwua li makan je ape,singgah jap je game.
bleh gtu?
=)
ok folks thats just about it.
nak alek bobokz uh.
tomorrow is a new day,
a new night to experience,
cant wait.
until then =)

make me laugh again la

2010-12-05T20:54:00.009+08:00

hahaha
im not even judging you.
thank you allah for making me open ma eyes.
biar saket ati skarang jgn nanti kan?
too bad theres no more that now.
forgive is somthing you trust urself n ikhlasly willing to.
not that bullshit of had to.
im a MAN OF MY WORD.
ill never forgive you until you kiss ma forehead.
jenazah aku!
yeah im kejam.
you can despite doing it purposely,
why cant i?
ur not the only human with feelings and get that in your head girl.
just wait till 10th for your stuffs back.
we as a family dont hold grudges against you at all.
none taken,i dont even badmouthed you ever.
idc whats gonna happen.
im not wrong,im not afraid.
Most of all i dont LIKE UNDERSTAND ONLY.

tawu akaks,
i try ma best to trust girls again.
definitely not her la.
obviously kan,
all that shit happen make me stronger.
way much stronger than how i used to.
being with her just makes me weak.
like a noob.
haha

hahaha enough talking bout NABIHAH now.
whos her anyway.
tzzzz.

cant believe mummy agreed with natasha pingyi.
kate die lawa la blablabla.
heh.
haikal nye pompuan cadangan.
hahaha
sibuk uh name natasha.
heh my queue awaits,let time flows 10th duluq.

ahaha no life sume bukak fb skarang,
mian aikal me.
gathering la kirekan,
adoy kcian kak min saket,
mudah mudahan cepat sembuh k.
sembahyang mian tengok,kwangasam!
jakun,beh ikot bace skali.
aha sekurang2nye die pun dapat pahalekan?
gdla amin.
currently 2100hrs besok angun 4am mcm biase jugak,
main game 3jam,
sempat!
haha.

please stop la eh kacaw2.
aint funny in the first place but along the way,
i learn that it really is funny,
smlm karaoke ngan family fiqo,
best!
mcm2 lagu.
aha noob la,sume lagu akeem takabes2!
mentah2 fits the situation that im in.
heh.
siket2 nyanyi lagu CINTA KITA.
aha

BEST main badminton,
rapatkan silaturahim,
i own haikal,mummy,mian.
onebyone.
kak min da menang siang2 that time.
haha.
neighbour budak kecik kacaw mummy n me,
kwangasam cekik2 kaw!
whos next?!!
got the guts?
bring it on baybeh!

N this new song i just uploaded best describe this special girl.
heh one which cant* be forgiven.=)
lyics kene mengene la tpy pandai2 la kayh.
hahaha ehem ehem.
akulah satu satunya lelaki cadangan.
happy to have been one!
wooohoo whatever happens happens la.=)
syukur nikmat.
enjoy!

the last moments of memories is about to begin

2010-12-04T20:14:00.004+08:00

dayymmnn..
so many things,so little time la kan.
mane nak ni mane nak tu,
tataw sape nak pilih gtu.
heh nva felt so free in ma life!
yearnin wat i wanna do n just do it.
no more rules ^^!
being a guy mah.
make people love me,not love people but cant ask em to love me.
i choose wat to do la kan.
hahahha,bitches!

nownow.
just last thing to do,
10th of december,
until then.
all prepared n ready to go.
everythings gonna be just as before,
no more pretending,no hutang,no misses,no kisses,n most of all,
watchu always wanted,
never even know u at all.
the old hakeem.
just the facts.
suck it up!
naz naz,tkmu la blg aku sabar,
aku da lame sabar babe.
if u were to ever put someone on ma shoes.
would that someone be sabar n calm n always hang on?
especially to a B-I-T-C-H who would flirt,cucimate,give/take/ask numbers from guys with no pride at all?
that would be a total NO.
why?
cause they dont deserve it.
thats why girls can never be pampered to much.
telalu manje,dapat sume die nak,tu psl nak world revolve around her.
well thats bullshit now.
syukur alhamdulilah.
i realised everything and allah bukakkan mateku ini.

guys can do just as much with an addition of manje.
heh!jealousy is so worthless!

Heh kalah race ngan ma broz,
l/r vs Ouv.
well obviously i pick aircon mah,
long distance tbleh more than 50 ape.
niways that night took lancer ex race budok.
haha 100 la seyh!
awesome!
i know bro,when the wind comes,we'll fly again!
but no more drinks ehh,
sembahyang is mesti tawuk.
i so get wat i wanted now,
everything.
hahaha!
upin.bikin klaka pe post fb menang race!
heh,shah,
tkbes2 ngan kaw nye,aku da ckp,time ns jgn pecaye pompuan.
n bob!
aha thx fer all d advice needed.
btol3!
harap2 je dpt laki pukol bantai je.
biar die sedar sendiri.
allah maha besar,maha pengasih,
die akan dapat balasanye.
sabar la.

tnga ni.heh cume satu je ape aku buat,
tak forgive sampai kiss on e forehead,jenazah aku ataw naseb uh.
tk kenal,thats the most better part.
for future.
hope i can tell ya'all further bout us but too bad there are limits.
not everything can be told,sorry folks.
tak kenal n da lupe.
thats all needed to know.

camp aku ni eh btol ruma aku,haha!
family ade,mcm bapak pun ada,mcm abang ade,mcm mcm la!
adoy,nva fail to make me smile.
i wonder wat i'd do without em.
not forgeting ma family la kan.
heh.
nownow enough typing,
there wont be an end.
until next time readers.
=) enjoy your weekends!

Whatever happens,happens.

2010-12-03T14:43:00.002+08:00

even for a reason or so.
your first judge of a person is always right.
believe me.
never met a girl who treat herself with no pride.
and i cant believe it i trusted her.
this is the first.
and the last.
Girls can neva be trusted.=)

Its true its true u do deserve the best of it that make it work im the right man babygirl lets make it work aight,
dut tuut tuuduuuduu dut tuut tuuduuuduu
duu duuut tuut tuut tuuduuu.

sorry get carried away.haha!
anywayz ima appreciate ma homiez n broz.
what they said is true.
girl can never been given a full trust.
with a blink of an eye,everything changes.
thats why they always remain as toys and so much more to our advantage.
hahaha reality akeem,accepted the fact!
ill never forgive you until you kissed me on the forehead,
and that is death.

enough bout that bullshit now,
haha smlm jumpe nana n azim,
adoy rindu la korang!
thx for trying to comfort me even just for 5mins.
those are precious guys,
heh curik kete dari mummy jumpe them.
haish cant believe i did it.
sorry mummy i broke ur trust,
next time i ask permission kayh,though confirm tblehnye.
the old ksiao akeem is back baybeh!
hahahahaha!
a lil diff,tetap sembahyang.
azim nak join?hah sure ur welcome bro,
anytime.
jahat same2 amalan pun same2.
we're not evil,just degil.

adooy

2010-11-30T19:11:00.002+08:00

tadapat g tahlil.
haiyo.
slalu gini.
just when i thought i could make it,tak jadi.
haish.
naseb baek mission tk pena fail.
heh
bapak kene alek lambat malam,mummy pun.
adoy.
tkpe dieorang keje keras,slmat pegy slmat balek sudah.

ima have to stay in here at nee soon camp since i start at 6.30am in the morning.
tanak menyusahkan mummy n bapak la bangun pagy2,
heh.sacrifice but it seems that i cant talk or irritate ma irritating twin.
everybodys trying their best to cheer me up.
thank you all for your care and understanding.
it helps alot though i didnt tell you all whats it about la kan.
avoid jadi GAY la unlike someone,nak jadi gay alek.
heh.
mwah

imy fy though i have to wait a few hours or minutes,
its like a second tu kan mcm a month tawuk!
hmph.
naseb la.
zabar.
can't wait to meet ma old wify back!

adoooy

2010-11-25T23:09:00.002+08:00

just when u thought u did something good,something bad will sure come out of it.
thats life.
a balance of good and bad.
well nobodys perfect la kan.

takpe,aku sabar dan ikhlas terima semue dugaan dan cubaan darinya.
biar orang kate buruk ataw fikir buruk tentangku dan fy,
hanya tuhan yang tawuk ape yg jadi dan segala-galanya,
aku ni manusia yang lemah,
fragile to be precised,
harus berlawan dengan godaan yang membuatku putus asa,
hidup di dunia sementara,
tapi kite semue manusia nak yang terbaik dalam dunia dan akhiratkan,
aku terima semuanya dengan ikhlas hati,
aku juga tawu dalam setiap perkara kita buat,
ada hikmahnye.
susah dulu,senang kemudian

lastly,i'm sorry for giving up fy,
it wont happen again.
ilya n always the most.
ati2 slalu.

its only just a dream la kan

2010-11-25T14:30:00.002+08:00

aku nak mimpi aku jadi.
aku nak aku nak aku nak!
!@#$!ergh!@#$%!
aku taktawu nape ngan aku,
makan langsong masih tk selere,
tibe2 berubah lepas bangun,
kawanku kateku berubah,
ketawenye tidak,senyum pun tidak.
da mcm mate hitamku terus hitam,
perasaan makin menghilang,semakin sepi gtu.
aku cumer campakkan perasaanku disini.
minta maaf sume dalam segala dosaku.
ni bukan emo,ni bukan bullshit.
its lost i think.
thank you all.

bad morning.

2010-11-25T10:27:00.002+08:00

hatiku tak sedap hatiku tak sedap hatiku tak sedap.
ntahlah.
tk selera makan
tkbleh tdo.
that's all folks

ily fy

Beloved fy

2010-11-24T11:45:00.004+08:00

I feel ur loss sayang,
why?why?why?
make urself difficult than it already is?
stop it.
ur not hurting urself only but ur hurting everyone around u especially me.
Yes i know ur beloved brother is gone,
Semoga Allah terima dia ke syurga,
I pledge an oath.
One is of e ring,
Ill never letchu cry lonely EVER.
One more is of ur beloved brother,i will take care of u as i can feel he too wanna talk to me and ask me to tc of u before he's gone.
ilya and i dnt want the same thing happen again,EVER!
being surrounded and stuffs...etc etc...

i want the best for u.
not like that.
please understand me.
im not here to make u feel difficult.
im here for u to be happy,
just live ur life.
i swear ma love for u is true.
ill cherish every one of it.
yes jalan kita masih panjang.
we'll make it through,
through thick and thin,
from susah,to senang.
Lastly.
Ur family is My family.
My money is Ur money,
Ur schedule is my schedule,
Ur time is My time,
Ur love is My love,
Ur tears is My tears,
Ur energy is My energy,^^
Ur Smile is My world
N lastly Ur Heart is in My heart tawuk!

Original ehh...
nk cut n paste?
LU PIKIR LA SENDIRI!
heh ilya gtg detail lagiikk...
haiya,3detail today,
all the way till 9pm,
hope it ends sooner cause i know it will..
doa la i really miss my fy right now.
i need u.
if only i could go to u now.

adoy pening.

2010-11-20T23:52:00.003+08:00

susah la seyh nak buat tumblr,ok ok i didnt even try la.
haha tkde time la.
ns ajeq.
Dont think being a driver is easy eh.
ur sleeping hours were never enough when its the most important thing they need u to have ever.
class 3 n 4 achieved.
next is 4s,forklift,class30,class 5.
haiya leceh la 1week for every course needed except 3 n 4,2months.
tkpela da naseb.
now currently above ma bedtiming,
tawuk fy.sorry tkblg,blindspot tk clear la tdy klua rushing.
now kt cc 1h jeq.
fy imytsm tpy lebih okaayh.shhh.
ok gotta drive back ni.
Yg because incident yg lalu last 2days kan,psl naz tu.
thats why i blogged kan lagi satu tu.
dont worry,it wont happen to us as i will never be that kinda guy.
i know u wont too fy,ity.
demam laa...tepakse mam ubat la,haiya leceh liao.
nasebla.
ill try ma best to blog as soon as i get the time too aight folks.
gdnite everybody.

a minor love experience

2010-11-20T23:27:00.003+08:00

What wouldchu do when u feel that ur missin someone u love the most?
simply think back the best memories ever that both of u have ever been together with,smell their clothes,look at their pictures n always do anything n everything next for him/her.-future
What wouldchu do when the one u love the most leftchu for another?
Fight for ur love and hold on,make it last,hold on n never turn back.heh
How do u make ur love last?
One of u have to give in when there are ups n downs,create a game that both of u would enjoy playing n losing together.Make a certain memorable song for u n he/she that when u hear it back,it reminds u of all the good cherished memories.
How do u get rid of ur doubts?
Think back of all the things how she/he sacrifices for u,fight for u,n most of all,love u.
How do u avoid fights?
Make a joke,tease him/her,hug or kiss em.
How do u sleep without ur loved ones?
Sleep at their once slept places,hug their once hugged pillows,imagine she was beside u smiling n kissin ur forehead saying gdnight.
Mostly,just dont forget Allah.

folks,these are just a minor explanation which most of ya'all would know.
i just said these for the sake of ma wify,Nabihah bte Abdul Rahim.
She was always there for me and i thank allah for that.
For giving me true love which i never thought i would have and for giving me trust.
I greatly appreciate her presence with me all these while for being with me,every single seconds of it Allah.
I'll make sure ill make it last,These 9months 1 week and 3days was full of joy,sadness and happiness ive never experienced ever.
Like malay saying goes,Kalau Jodoh Tak Kemana La Kan.
I'll make an oath that I,muhammad hakeem bin marwardi will never leave Nabihah Bte Abdul Rahim ever!Insyallah.
Be it by doubts n hurdles am yet to face.
We are all gettin older together and have to change the phases of our life.
Susah Dulu sama-sama,Senang Kemudian sama-sama.
Thank u for being there and loving me fy,
Thank u for taking care of me all these while,
Thank u for always giving in all these while and believe me,it'll never go to a waste
Thank u for everything and u are always amazing being who u are.
Please dont change.
I love u always even more la fy.
N im missed u every second ur not around.
Most importantly readers,Be Faithful.Setia.
Make ur own rules,we've got ours ^^
im obeying it every single seconds of it fy dont worry.
mwah

packed n ready to go.

2010-05-16T16:20:00.004+08:00

Am ready for more.
this 4days of resting n coming back after 16days of leave
was really meaningful to me.
be it emotionally or physically or mentally.

Emotionally :
too bad u have to go as much as i dont wantchu to.

Physically :
getting thinner but kong uh.ehem2..
acsen jeq.

Mentally :
i'm not cheap n you readers know it urself.
we all have different walk in life.
we go through different things.
especially when we lost contacts with one another.

*tattoo*:
you dont know me as much as u think u do.
you never will as ur not close to me as u thought so.
i aint tha same and will nva be.

Ma first friend in msia:

ahahaha get to know this girl la from ma area by mistake.
aha she's funny alrite.
tak gado tak sah!
kentot btol.
last long n stay strong till ur tunang aight gerl?
n jyeah as we get to know ea other more ill definitely know how to understand n speak BM and you,s'pore fluently.
huhu

so jyeah so many things to do yet so little time la seyh!
daymn wish it could last a lil longer.
will be back for more folks.
wish me luck for upcoming obstacles and hurdles am yet to face.

Home Sweet Home BaYbEh!

2010-05-14T16:06:00.003+08:00

watsup folks.
am back finally after a 16days out at tekong.
well its kinda private and restricted to letcha all know what im doing der.
so yeah.
i am BOTAK.
Kutok me all ya want,idc.
one for all all for one.
6more weeks till e hell is over.
wooh ma ncc when its time secondary quite similar to the toughness.
lucky me heh.
jyeah one thing as much as i could tell ya folks is ippt is same as napha test,
so guys out there do well for napha aight.i got gold for napha but silve for ippt.
nope not drop down,its a thick gap between both of these.
so jyeah gold definetely has ma name on it.

got hum wash clothes,hugged monica and marsell,
lie down on ma loveliest bed,piano,guitar n scoob baybeh!

woke up at 9am,woah early seyh,
was expecting 1pm or so.
da biase la kan angun 5.30am everyday,
schedule for e day :
1st thing 1st-
SCOOB
lappy
movie
cook rendang
housewife -2hours minimum
give anak mamam
7BX -warm up
jogging to ma auntey house around 3km total at msia,cancelled due to rain-daymn!
7BX -cool down
lappy
scoob
movie
toilet cleaner
piano
maebe out tonite with family
sleep n await a new day ahead.

aha not a NO LIFE!
n for those who didnt want me to delete e blog,
these r for ya.

eheh

Helpless when she's gone

2010-04-14T00:39:00.005+08:00

Daymn!
very the bored la seyh.
adoy.
sry i didnt update for a very very long time.

Currently living as a NO LIFE working day n nightl.
Morning to Aftn,Aftn to night juggling with 2 works.
cant stand it when i spend ma time just doing nothing.
so cant help it lar.
it's been 5mnths n i managed to cope with it.

now ima wait for ma NS to come on 27april.
quitting ma DHL by this friday.
Had to train shuffy by friday to master everything or else they'll cut ma pay $50!
daymn i'd rather not work for 3days than that to happen!
aha nothing is impossible la kan as long as u put ur heart n soul to it.
will continue FedEx till 25th and rest till NS.

Workin life is a total change for me.
Mixin with Waks Waks n matured/married peeps.
learning to be discipline n responsible.
one thing i see in them is the word "LAZY/MALAS" is never in their dictionary.
well or unwell,rain or shine they still work to earn a living.
support their own family members.
Learn to mix n make friends,love in a betta way n to be loved.

so jyeah.
chatted with someone from ma past time.
had fun with ya,
you never fail to make me smile in everything and anything you do.
aha telaka ar die!
get well soon ehh.
kalaw taaak jage uh.

zanywayz,
living back tha old days.
pasir ris -.-"
hanging on till the end of the week.
huhu.just a week jeq.
personal problem will not be stated here cause this aint a private blog whereby you invite to only people whom you trust when the truth of the matter is,you only blog about your life/happiness n sorrow but not about family.=)
that's all folks.

To Whom It May Concerm*

2010-02-03T01:49:00.004+08:00

What a shame we all became such fragile, broken things
A memory remains just a tiny spark
I give it all my oxygen,
So let the flames begin
So let the flames begin

Oh, glory
Oh, glory
This is how we'll dance when
When they try to take us down
This is what will be, oh glory

Somewhere weakness is our strength,
And I'll die searching for it
I can't let myself regret such selfishness
My pain and all the trouble caused,
No matter how long
I believe that there's hope
Buried beneath it all and
Hiding beneath it all, and
Growing beneath it all, and...

This is how we'll dance when
When they try to take us down
This is how we'll sing out loud
This is how we'll stand when
When they burn our houses down
This is what will be, oh glory

Reaching as I sink down into light.
Reaching as I sink down into light.

This is how we dance when
When they try to take us down
This is how we'll sing out loud
This is how we'll stand when,
When they burn our houses down
This is what will be, oh glory

To Whom It May Concerm*

watsup yaw...

2009-12-06T22:05:00.004+08:00

ok ya so its like one in a million for me to actually find any interest in pc usage..
tzzz..
tak maen ar tagged2 sumer..
da relek..
heh..
da menyesal ponn..
hah!
back to basics..

ok so tinggal rumah mahhlaaammm..
till 15th seyh..
damn i wish it could be at least a month..
tzzz..
workin workin i barely had time for sleep la kan...
i woke up at 5pm tadi la seyh!
slept siang taw...10pm...to 5pm next day...
woot!
heh...

so jyeah coolshit la kan..
got pit today till tuesday la seyh!
kene pergi kene pergi..
else kene standard phrase :"ki pey budak,PAITAO!"
tzzz..
ki pey SUP!
haha..
hmmm besok wakie wakie 4.30am to go sg..
sigh..
npmo for me eyh..
da biase ton ton..
alot been happenin lately..
ma twin got bikin by someone -__-"
all because OF A GIRL?!
WTF?
see girls are poison huh?
pfft..
i did do somethin bout it as a big brother..
ade ar..
secret..

niwaes,cya all at tha pit tomorrow yo mates..
heh got this girl who wanna proof me wrong again..
cant believe maself whom actually give a chance to accept that..
oh well the thing is we actually get to know ea other from fate la seyh!
believe it or not ive given up but mcm orang tua ckp la kan..
cinta tak ke mana,kalaw ada jodoh tetap akan datang.
-____-"
so well ima go for it..
meetin her tomorrow..
nak tawu sape?
secret..
shoo!

AND THIS TIME NOT FROM "TAGGED" asking numbers n stuffs..
tzzz..
secret ar..
heh =)
tc all will be updating when i got a chance to,
jarang update la kan?
businessman!chey!SUDAHLAH!
haha work work work like a workaholic..
huhu..

Dua Hari Lambat...DHL

2009-11-04T11:35:00.002+08:00

yeh yeh yeh!
back to basic bby!
missin the old times...
having the old times...
awesome!
sadly,no tv and etc...
but fun isnt about entertainment mah...
heh

lately...
been busy and restless...
working after sch...
no no not escape...
psr rs memories must die...
tsk
so jyeah...
work 4hours everyday...
awesome!
no more jb.
enjoying wats left to enjoy...
the hard time awaits but we're as one...
and will always be as one...
girls are poisonz
family for life.

...zzz...

2009-10-30T20:28:00.004+08:00

its so damn hard findin a girl whom u could actually trust..
lol.
currently emotionally blocked?
pissed huh.
trust me.
all bullshit man bullshit...
known alot.
none to be trusted...
actually i gave up.
hah.
ok so enough bout girls.
none gonna prove me wrong.
actually alot la but mepek malas nak layan.
im damn bored la...
cb dota cannot play...

been stress lately...
got this massive pimple below ma mouth...
cb!
satu jek taw...
sial ar mepek sia..
a lot of problems,conflicts,issues...
gonna start lving in mysia?budok?or another budok?
pfft...
hate ma shoes right now...
avoiding and pretending should help...
oh go to hell la...

yea got contact back with ma bro...
chill bro we're in e same shoes...
we're gonna win...
haha!

shake!

2009-10-15T21:46:00.001+08:00

ooh im soo in love with this song...
nver really thought for who la...
always a song reminds me of someone kan...
heh...
nothing else to blog...

Bye bye

2009-10-14T14:01:00.000+08:00

I'm doing this tonight
you're probably gonna start a fight
i know this can't be right
hey baby c'mon
i loved you endlessly
and you weren't there for me
so now it's time to leave
and make it alone
i know that i can't take no more
it ain't no lie
i wanna see you out that door
baby bye bye bye

don't wanna be a fool for you
just another player in
your game for two
you may hate me but it ain't no lie
baby bye bye bye
don't really wanna make it tough
I just wanna tell you
that I've had enough
it might sound crazy but
it ain't no lie
baby bye bye bye

just hit me with the truth
girl you're more than welcome to
so give me one good reason
baby c'mon
i lived for you and me
and now I've really come to see
[ Find more Lyrics on www.mp3lyrics.org/DT ]
that life would be much
better once you're gone
i know that i can't take no more
it ain't no lie
i wanna see you out that door
baby bye bye bye

i'm givin' up i know for sure
i don't wanna be the
reason for your love no
more
bye bye
i'm checking out i'm signing off
i don't wanna be the loser
and i've had enough

i don't wanna be your fool
in this game for two
so i'm leavin' you behind

bye bye bye
i don't wanna make it tough
but i've had enough
and it ain't no lie
bye bye
i don't wanna be a fool for you
just another player in
your game for two
i don't wanna be your fool
but it ain't no lie
baby bye bye bye
don't really wanna make it tough
i just wanna tell you
that i've had enough
it might sound crazy but
it ain't no lie

ily mummy.

2009-10-06T23:18:00.003+08:00

its been almost 18years of my life...
u nva did stop caring for me although u said all those harsh words...
u nva look down on me,
and i know ur intentions was always the best for me...
i realise one thing mummy,
sacrifices are only for someone worth for.
someone who love u.
someone who care for u.
someone who trust u.
and someone u'll last with.
im srry for all the wrong things and actions ive made to u...
family are indeed always there for u people!
and thats why,
gf/bf cannot be treated as same...
thats one thing for sure...
no matter how hard u tried to made ur r/s happen,
ull regret as u can nva clap with one hand people,nver.
folks,
try making a r/s treating ur gf as a part of ur family.
dont say i didnt warn ya peeps,
gdluck trying ^^
and jyeah...
mummy i love u so.
i dont know how to express lar..
u know,guys...
ceyh!sudahlah!
ya ill do wat u want mummy,
u dont like that person i wont pursue.
all for u mummy.
ok da i wanna go eat ma cake right now!
with a cherry on top bby!=)

life hurdles...

2009-09-29T00:05:00.002+08:00

sick.
agony.
pain.
hurt.
restless.
annoyed.
tired.

im sure of this that this will happen:
we're not gonna meet until we almost break or at the end of our struggle against one another..
this is my instinct.
none of us will bother to ask one another to meet.
it has happen before.
im sure it will again...

all i want u to know is.
ilyw & imyw.
tc wify

errrrrr

2009-09-11T14:12:00.001+08:00

speechless...

yawn yawn...

2009-08-12T00:43:00.003+08:00

waiting for what to do next...
sigh...
ngantok la seyh!
bby just finish her project...
ade new work...
huhu...
with auntey...
BUT...
tk jadi...
lappy buat hal...
ergh!
diam ar...

sooo...
tomorrow
i doubt we'll get to meet wify...
you just go have ur gatherings kayh?
dont worry bout me...
i so dont want ur friend to think that im selfish to have u all by maself...
though i do have that feelings,
yelaaa hubbiey manerkan nanak have their wife all by himself...
im not that heartless to be selfish la seyh...
ill just stick to badminton beysok...
damn theyre gay!
coach lagi gay!
national team player once meh,even sea game...
now thats gay!
haha sume ade name pat sane...
ade called robot,ade nerd,ade angkong-siao,haha macam2 name mepek dinamakan...
but i wanna go gym too...
missed gym tadi cos of dota,i know,NO LIFE!
wuek!
da lame tak ehk...
so tomorow sw would be half gym then badminton,
fair enough...
hehe...
aduhai ngantok nye!

da la...
sampai disini je lah for today folks...
gdnite!

yellow again...

2009-08-03T18:17:00.004+08:00

sigh...
super ****ed up...
didnt get to go johor when i FREAKING got MC to skip work on weekends...
urgh!
had to crawl maself to work again everyweekend...
thanks to my irritating twin for bringin my passport along so i couldnt go...
otherwise i would think of a way to get there...
stupidshit!

sorry folks i didnt get to use much of a computer all these while...
sorry...
not so into it also i guess except for games la...
heh...
dont angry/marah marah k,later banyak uban!

Guess what i got in the morning when the sun began to rise?
class at lvl 6...
wow!
-___-"
thanks ar fiq...
sungguh tk perlu yaw...
takmu amek hati bro...
chill...
3days of sick and peeps callin me skinny?
da tak muscular...
NOW thats UNFAIR!
guess skipping meals really made a big difference...
heh...
thx fer lettin me know apek...
jyeah...
class kecoh pe!
no offense b*
oreo strawberry bought 1box all gone like that...
haha!
guess the oreo virus has spread through our class...
heh,
not any ordinary ehk...
strawberry taw!
appciate loads ziera for sharing money,
hehe...
ASS----tm

Congratz apek on having a gf...
finally...
heeh...
gdluck all the best and last long bro!
pape picit...
tkmu,geli...
pape kite pst pst!

bby fasting today la...
sigh,sick sick also fast...
glad u complete it.worried taw...
oh bby i love you too...
i miss you too and i shall be with you forever more la kaan...
and jyeah...
trouble trouble come again...
no matter how big or small it is...
we'll always pull it through...
our affections and trust towards ea other is what keeps us going...
oh its just unfair?
hee dont get me started...
u know wat i mean...
wueeek!
hope u get well soon bby...
im ok la...
can go gym already...
heehs...
tc dear love u wholeheartedly la seyh!

okayh okayh...
gtg siap siap...
later late meet b kena scold...
dowant and not gonna happen...
that's all folks...

updates...

2009-06-21T00:15:00.002+08:00

so yeah...
this blog been dead for 3weeks or more...
sorry to keep ya'll waiting...
ive been real busy lately...
working la,spending time with friends & bby...
work damn tiring,
end of this month confirm black la seyh!
boleyh confirm!

sorry ferd,dat time tak call...
was at johor...
sorry wan iswandy,tak angkat...
pep8 da 1cents...
sorry guys for paito-ing...
didnt meant to...
mummy took house key away...
takleyh cabot...

things just didnt go as planned...
something has to cropped up out of the blue...
stupid sh*t...
well oh well...
its fate la kan...
ceyh!
tkdela...
tak sengaje...
harap dimaafkan jika salah silap in any way...
tc SMB crew...
hope ya'll doin fine...

and jyeah...
bby although i cant call ya...
ill still be receiving ur msges and reading it okayh...
ill be at my very best to reply...
and ily truckloads!
missing you truckloads too!
heh...
tc bby!

a stranger

2009-05-18T19:13:00.000+08:00

Said I got your, (got your), picture, (picture), on a frame across the wall, (wall)
And I stuck it out, (stuck it out), with you, (with you), cause you said that we wouldnt fall, f-fall, f-fall
Youve proved your point, (point) | Okay I get it, (get it)
That this is just a ride and you aint try to sweat it, no
And yes Ill try, (try), try to forget it, (-get it)
But you cut me so deep, cut, cut, cut, cut me so deep
Chorus:
A stranger You've become a stranger|
A stranger You've become a stranger You cut me so deep, cut, cut, cut, cut me so deep
You cut me so deep, cut, cut, cut, cut me so deep
|You cut me so deep, cut, cut, cut, cut me so deep
See I try to, (try to), fix ya, (fix ya), but the damage is beyond repair
I couldnt see it, (see it), didnt want to, (want to)
Never thought you wouldnt want me there, the-there, the-there
You've proved your point, (point) Okay I get it, (get it)
That this is just a ride and you aint try to sweat it, no
And yes Ill try, (try), try to forget it, (-get it)
But you cut me so deep, cut, cut, cut, cut me so deep
Chorus:
A stranger You've become a stranger
A stranger You've become a stranger
You cut me so deep, cut, cut, cut, cut me so deep (Hey yeah)
You cut me so deep, cut, cut, cut, cut me so deep
You cut me so deep, cut, cut, cut, cut me so deep
Colby:
Everywhere I go, (go) Everything I see, (see)
Girl it reminds me of you and me
How I miss you so much, miss your touch
| Just only wish you could fall back in love ?
But I see that youre hurt, (hurt) | Seein you cry, (cry)
Breaks my bitty heart, breaks my bitty heart
Cannot deny, (-ny), aint gonna lie, (lie)
Breaks my bitty heart, breaks my bitty heart, (heart)
Now try to understand cause you got every man showin him the things that I used to do ?
Not cool, not cool, cot cool
How would you like it if I did it to you?
And how girls say I've become a stranger
But really when you put our love on the hanger
I became a stranger
A stranger (Hey) You've become a stranger (Hey, hey) (Hey, hey)
All my friends saïd, (ooh), he would tell, (ooh), me what to do, (yeah), what to do, (yeah, hey, hey)
Now I know I never should've trusted, trust-trusted
Chorus:
A stranger You've become a stranger
A stranger You've become a stranger
You cut me so deep, cut, cut, cut, cut me so deep
You cut me so deep, cut, cut, cut, cut me so deep
You cut me so deep, cut, cut, cut, cut me so deep

Monthsary letter

2009-05-10T14:47:00.003+08:00

a month knowing u has been a good experience.
u thought me the meaningful values and this i shall treasure.
it has been fun spending my time with u.
for that,i thank u for ur presence.
i really appreciate it.
its awesome to have u to understand and tolerate my nonsense and blurness.
:) Love u dearest.
Happy a monthsary.

speechless...
seriously...
bby ur not nonsense nor blurness...
and yeah its been fun spending ma time with u too...
thats to need to thank me for ma presence,
u made that choice...
u make it happen...
and jyeah...
thanks for accepting/enduring ma jokes although it can be hurtful...
actually its meant to but i have no intention whatsoever...
for that i shall give u a lil something.
a show of appreciation.
:) Love u too dearest.
Happy a monthsary to u too bby!

shakalalalalala

2009-05-07T20:49:00.002+08:00

heh...
so today was quite a busy day...
go school with bby...
still late...
mummy sent us to mrt...
singgah selalu...
tak ar...
mcdonald jer...
orang tu kann...
die knn...
nak bawak bekal taw...
beh plastic hilang...
wakakaka...
wat a noob seyh...
no offense b...
as i was saying...
so just discovered la kan bus 154 from ma school reach ngee ann poly...
ade chance ar g school with b everyday...
tpi bulom confirm...
heh...

Tomorrow freaking Napha Test!
YAY!!!
WOHOOO!
happy la seyh!
and dissapointed...
cause da buat get gold kan...
ehem ehem...
then kene uat lagik...
for NS nye psl ehk...
kasi chance ar...
taknak show off tapi da mintak kene show off...
nak aperkan...
heh...
aiming for better than last time...
ok ok...
gtg skipping...
for ma standing broad jump...
silver like hell man!
the rest gold...
standard basic...
heh...
kk da stop...

missing bbygerl like ttuuutt*
then kan...
errr...
errrrrr...
errrrrrrrrr...
she silat practise ar...
biase ar...
Fighter PER...
hefehefehefe!
Boi ar dier...
heh...
tomorrow hope can meet b...
kena g mysia celebrate mothers day...
DONT FORGET VESAK DAY!!!
KELLY-ENG BUTOL!!!

shakalalala (:

2009-05-01T19:50:00.002+08:00

Remember those photographs we took on the port in
Spain I took them down and ripped them up and
threw them all away remember on the back of one
you wrote we would meant to be that doesn't really
matter now cause u don't mean a thing to me

baby you shoulda told me told me from the start I
thought I was your only till you put me on the
shelf and found somebody else

[Chorus]
I never thought that you would ever do that
everything we had is gone said you loved me said
never leave me maybe I just heard you wrong
cause I'm damaged, I'm damaged, don't know what to
do, baby I'm damaged so, so damaged because of you

got rid of those clothes you left like you got rid
of our dreams don't wanna be reminded of all of
the memories I use to have the ticket stub saved
from our very first date but that don't really
matter now cause you threw our love away

baby you shoulda told me cause now I'm torn apart
thought that I was your only till you put me on
the shelf and found sumbody else

[Chorus]

it's almost like you were never here I almost feel
like I don't care girl I almost got rid of all
the pain the only thing I have left to say is how
good you leave me so damaged

[Chorus]
Girl I never thought, never thought never thought
that'd you'd do that everything is gone
(everything is gone) you said you loved me said
you'd never leave me maybe I just heard you wrong
(heard you wrong)

flying solo

2009-04-20T20:00:00.002+08:00

Departure time 7:30
I'm packed and ready to go
First class ticket outta here
I think it's time,
To put it back in gear,
No more standing by,
I'm tryin to stay clear

Turbulence got me nervous,
I should have never flown
Scared when you
Fly alone again
You know the atmosphere
Wasn't perfect
I'm thinkin to myself
Was it worth it

Layover's almost over
I can see clearly,
No more stormy weather
Exit row,
Don't pull on
The lever, lever
This gon be
My final destination
No more sittin round
Havin my time wasted

You say it's now or never
I pick never
We can be together,
So calm down
No more red eye late nights
I'm one way,
No more connected flights

When we stared out knew
This relationship
Was unhealthy
Youbroke the code,
Never thought
That you would stoop so low
You got me flyin solo
Now you cryin talkin bout you
Can't live without me yeah
My heart is sold
Should have never ever let me just go

You've got me flying solo
Solo solo

Touchin' down 11:30
I'm rushing
Through the doors
I'm in a good place now
Can't find my baggage
And I don't even want it back
And I don't want
To have you no more

I don't need to carry on
It's gonna weight me down
He didn't think
That I would find out
Whether or not
Who is wrong or right
I can't talk now,
I gotta catch another flight

Layover's almost over,
I can see clearly,
No more stormy weather
Exit row, don't pull
On the lever, lever
This gon be
My final destination

No more sittin round
Havin my time wasted.

You say it's now or never
I pick never
We can be together, s
O calm down
No more red eye late nights
I'm one way,
No more connected flights

When we stared out knew
This relationship
Was unhealthy
You broke the code,
Never thought
That you would stoop so low
You got me flyin solo
Now you cryin talkin bout you
Can't live without me yeah

You've got me flying solo
Solo solo

Four hours scared to fly
Without you here
Now you can't get
Under my skin
Like you did before
Why
I was reluctant
To walk out on us
So now I'm taking
Back my life
Goodbye

When we stared out knew
This relationship
Was unhealthy
You broke the code,
Never thought
That you would stoop so low
You got me flyin solo
Now you cryin talkin bout you
Can't live without me yeah

You've got me flying solo
Solo solo

happily happy...

2009-04-17T18:50:00.002+08:00

so i was busy for quite awhile...
busy week with project and stuffs...
still had time for BBy though...
heh...
of course la seyh...
love can overcome anything mah...
like i said nothing gonna come between us?
ill prove it allright...
so i've been attched for a week la kann...
1st week seyh...
heh...
so among the manymany girls ive met and get to know la kann...
she's the one who stole ma heart...
and it aint easy okayh...
i dont trust girl nomore...

At first,
i thought she wasnt the one for me...
cause we have nothing in common...
well the only thing was we loved each other...
and jyeah ill treasure it well...
that i assure ya...
another thing i realise was she's as fragile as me...
that's one advantage for me to know and feel her...
awww bby ily so...
thanks for being by my side when i needed someone the most...
when problem crops up...
when the day feels like it has no tomorrow...
when the sun never shine...
the kindness...
the sweetess...
the care...
the beauty...
theres only one person...
and she's syafa...
ma new bbygerl!
=D!

Monday...13th

2009-04-14T02:22:00.003+08:00

azim bdae...
happie bdae bro!
jyeah...
went chillin with azim,roy,nurul,haikal,shahmi,ijad,syafa...
had a great day though...
until something just burst through ma mind...
trust me u dont wanna know...
heh...
im just upset...
super duper upset...
on someone...
u know who u are la!
wanna know why?
pandai-pandai uh contact me...
so now...
even i myself dont even know im single or attached...
wtf la kan?!
sial ar!
jyeah...
just when i thought my day was great,it turned to this...

restless like F***!
cant sleep like HELL!
padehal ngantok!!!!
abang buat hal!!!!
rokok mati!!!
what worse can my day get?!!!!
panda eye da cantek!
gimme a punching bag!!!

catching up

2009-04-12T20:38:00.005+08:00

danngsss...
holidaes bout to end...
mummy not feeling well...
talking stuffs like tawu tak sempot bunuh bape bnyk orang?!
omg la...
stop it seyh!
i dont wanna lose u mummy...
not just me...
i know the whole family feels the same way...
although ive been rather harsh towards u...
like saying okayh when u told me ur sick...
ill always love u and ull always be ma one and onli mummy!
mannn...
i hope she's okayh...
she's gone to the doctor...
tc mummy!

well...
back from johor since like thursday?
and jyeah...
get to try out motor...
awesome!
tapi tkde clutch uh...
auto nye...
haha!
ok lame...
had fun...
releases stress and stuffs...

so wanna join muay thai...
learning by maself aint making any diff...
i mean like ok uh but no officially mah...
school starts tomorrow...
april intake coming...
jyeah...
confirm kecoh...
skola da start fana after this first term...
SUDAHLAH!
outa shape...
nva went gym 2weeks straight...
lucky masih ade 4packs...
huhu...
gotta watch wat im eating...

mariah carey-my ex taw...
ceyh!
and mummy fav artist!
heehs...
lyrics-standard...
someone special too...
but different from previous song ehk...
tkmu terase kayh...
read the "lyrics" carefully...
u know who u are...

Oh baby
Baby, I stay in love with you

Dying inside cause I can't stand it
Make or break up
Can't take this madness
We don't even really know why
All I know is baby
I try and try so hard
To keep our love alive

If you dont' know me at this point
Then I highly doubt you ever will
I really need you to give me
That unconditional love I used to feel
It's no mistaking
We're just erasing
From our hearts and minds

And I know we said let go
But I kept on hanging on
Inside I know it's over
You're really gone
It's killing me
Cause there ain't nothing
That I can do
Baby, I stay in love with you

And I keep on telling myself
That you'll come back around
And I try to front like "Oh well"
Each time you let me down
See I can't get over you now
No matter what I do
But baby, baby
I stay in love with you

Na na na na na na na na na
Na na na na na na na na na
Na na na na na na na na na
Baby, I stay in love with you

It cuts so deep
It hurts down to my soul
My friends tell me
I ain't the same no more
We still need each other
When we stumble and fall
How we gon' act
Like what we had
Ain't nothin' at all now

Hey, what I wanna do is
Ride shotgun next to you
With the top down like we used to
Hit the block
Proud in the SUV
We both know our heart is breaking
Can we learn from our mistakes
I can't rest one moment alone
Although I know

We said let go
But I kept on hanging on
Inside I know it's over
You're really gone
It's killing me
Cause there ain't nothing
That I can do
Baby, I stay in love with you

And I keep on telling myself
That you'll come back around
And I try to front like "Oh well"
Each time you let me down
See I can't get over you
Now no matter what I do
Baby, baby
I stay in love with you

We said let go
But I kept on hanging on
Inside I know it's over
You're really gone
It's killing me
Cause there ain't nothing
That I can do
Baby, I stay in love with you

And I keep on telling myself
That you'll come back around
And I try to front like "Oh well"
Each time you let me down
See I can't get over you
Now no matter what I do
But baby, baby
I stay in love with you

I stay in love
Love
Oh, I stay in love

Jai Ho!

2009-04-05T22:04:00.003+08:00

to a special someone...
you know who you are...

(Jai Ho)I got (I got) shivers (shivers),
When you touch away,
I'll make you hot,
Get all you got,
I'll make you wanna say (Jai Ho)

(Jai Ho)

I got (I got) fever (fever),
Running like a fire,
For you I will go all the way,
I wanna take you higher (Jai Ho)
I keep it steady
Cuz steady is how I feel it.
This beat is heavy, so heavy,
You gon feel it.

(Jai Ho)You are the reason that I breathe,(Jai Ho)
You are the reason that I still believe,(Jai Ho)
You are my destiny,
Jai Ho! Uh-uh-uh-oh!
(Jai Ho)No there is nothing that can stop us(Jai Ho)
Nothing can ever come between us,(Jai Ho)
So come and dance with me,
Jai Ho! (oohh)

Catch me, catch me, catch me, come and catch me,
I want you now,
I know you can save me, come and save me,
I need you now.
I am yours forever, yes, forever,
I will follow,
Anywhere in anyway,
Never gonna let go.

Jai Ho

(Jai Ho) Escape (escape) away (away),
I'll take you to a place,
This fantasy of you and me,
I'll never lose the chase. (Jai Ho)

Yeaahhhh (Jai Ho) Yeaahhhh

I can (I can) feel you (feel you),
Rushing through my veins,
There's an notion in my heart,
I will never be the same.

(Jai Ho)Just keep it burnin', yeah baby,
Just keep it comin', (Jai Ho)
You're gonna find out, baby,
I'm one in a million.

(Jai Ho)You are the reason that I breathe,(Jai Ho)
You are the reason that I still believe,(Jai Ho)
You are my destiny,
Jai Oh! Uh-uh-uh-oh!

(Jai Ho)No there is nothing that can stop us(Jai Ho)
Nothing can ever come between us(Jai Ho)
So come and dance with me,
Jai Ho! (oohh) (You and me, it's destiny)

Catch me, catch me, catch me, come and catch me,
I want you now,
I know you can save me, come and save me,
I need you now.
I am yours forever, yes, forever,
I will follow,
Anywhere in anyway,
Never gonna let go.

Jai Ho (Yeeeaaahh), Jai Ho (Yeeeaaahh), Jai Ho

I need you,
Gonna make it,(Jai Ho)
I'm ready,
So take it!

(Jai Ho)You are the reason that I breathe,(Jai Ho)
You are the reason that I still believe,(Jai Ho)
You are my destiny,
Jai Oh! Uh-uh-uh-oh!

(Jai Ho)No there is nothing that can stop us,(Jai Ho)
Nothing can ever come between us,(Jai Ho)
So come and dance with me,
Jai Ho! (oohh)You and me, it's destiny

urgh

2009-04-02T03:23:00.005+08:00

im so fucking depressed!
bloodyhell i tell ya!
ninabuey cibai fuk fuk fuck!
wallet gone...
gone to police station for report...
pity mummy had to fork out for ma stupid shit...
ic,ezlink,sim card and atm card...
im so not the careless type i tell ya!
argh!
and today is soo not my day!
lost almost everyone i'd known except for ma family...
i'm going crazy on a first of april?
a day which suppose to have fun and laughter?
wOw!
and and
daddy,
i wanna keep my hair...
dyeing my hair doesnt change me...
im still me...
attitude isnt a single bit affected...
just because appearance?
nampak cam budak nakal?
wei!
dont judge a book by its cover k...
im trying it once and not every YEAR wat...
so i hope you wont wake me up when the sun havent rise to the fullest and tell me to dye my hair black AgAiN...

to ma folks:

jannah:
tk perly ehk: ibbuu tengok uh die kacaw!
-____-"
its just one button away!

illa:
sticking on the same sentence doesnt relate to anything
and i said things which would never be spoken out of anger...
sorry

eedah:
stop pretending someone ur not...
having a mask on isnt making u look good but otherwise...
think carefully of what ur going to say from now on...
cause its a new diff me...
e serious one...

dee:
take it easy nya...
im sorry for what you've been through...
anything cariku at home phone kayh?
dont do anything stupid...
think positive and stay strong girl...
you are strong so keep it up!

syafa:
stop making promises and giving hopes if ur not up to it...
it'll destroy trust.

that's all folks...

these past few days

2009-03-31T02:08:00.003+08:00

met dee,syeddah and addah...
heh...
kens ar...
step i love jannah...
puik!
jap jap lupe kahak...
khaaak tui!!
k da cukop exageration...
perang dunia 3 jap...
piracy!
after that went to gym...
GueSs WhOt!
gym instructor came and have a look at us...
me fiqo azim haikal...
and only one pass.
ME =D!
huhu...
ade bakaat uh...
kk if they knew i talk about this confirm kenenye...
weee!
then went shopping pat sheng siong jap...
beli bukan2 seyh...
dye hair...
heh...
try once in a lifetime la kanns...
then kfc snackers jap...
then hum...

the mrt freakz...

me and fiqo=D!

fierce tak pat vt?

ok so this is what happen...
gone to pit...
GEREK!
some thinga better not to mention...
heh...
gile2 sume g swamp...
tsk...
gone homme...
found out ade scratch...
3 taw!!
satu panjaaaaanngg sangat2...
heh...
i remember i open ma shirt infront of the swamp entrance...
show off la kans...
wings...chicken wings =D!
kk hakeem stop...
so jyeah...

menyesal bukak baju at swamp entrance -_____-"
that's all about it...
nak nengok COMING SOON!!!
grrrr...
sape sudi uh??
temankan boleyh??
heehs...

Taking back my love...

2009-03-27T14:08:00.002+08:00

Red One, Ciara, Enrique

go ahead
just leave
can’t hold you,you’re free
you take all these things
if they mean so much to you
i gave you your dreams
'cause you meant the world
so did i deserve to be left here hurt
you think i don’t know
you’re out of control
i ended up finding all of this from my boys
girl you’re stone cold
you say it ain't so
you already know i’m not attached to material

CHORUS:
i give it all up, but i’m taking back my love,
i’m taking back my love,
i’m taking back my love,
i’ve given you too much,
but i’m taking back my love,
i’m taking back my love, my love,my love,my love,my love

CIARA:
what did i do?
but give love to you
i’m just confused
as i stand here and look at you
from head to feet
all that's not me
go ahead keep the keys
that's not what i need from you
you think that you know
ENRIQUE “i do”
you made yourself cold
ENRIQUE ” oh yeah”
how could you believe them
over me i'm your girl
you’re out of control
ENRIQUE “so what”
how could you let go
ENRIQUE “oh yeah”
don't you know i'm not attached to material

RE. CHORUS x2

ENRIQUE
so all this love, i gave you take it away
CIARA
you think material’s the reason i came
ENRIQUE
if i had nothing would u want me to stay?
CIARA
you keep your money take it all away

so thats the lyrics la...
haha best la seyh lagu...
kk...
hmm...
will update more bout someone tomorrow...
if sempat la kann...
today got pit la seyh!
urgh was planning to watch coming soon at e-hub...
beh takjadi...
damn!
tkpe...
tomorrow got pit at psp...
standard basic...
torn today till suday la seyh..
pape la ehk...
kk that's all folks

KAKBBY!

2009-03-18T02:38:00.004+08:00

About her:
hmmm...
Kind,caring...
moody at times...
hehe...
gorgeous or cute...
dont know la not sure la...
heh...
known her for quite some time...
good to make friends with uh...
friendly,intelligent but lazy...

heh...
heres what happen a lil bit happen bout today...
KAKBBY!!!!
huhu...
Must be emo-ing outside school at the staircase of overheadbridge la tu...
heh...
i think she emo after talking bout gym uh...
not that certain though...
but im sure of it...
cmon man!
JOIN US!
i bet u'll be HOT and Prettier than ever before...
the fact was actually...
we wanted u to slim down...
not for us...
for ur own good...
we dont want u to get hurt in a r/s...
lets just say...
u cant possibly love a guy all the way without at least meeting once...
and how hurt u would get after him knowing what u are now...
We dont want u to get hurt nor heartbroken...
all we wanted for u is to be happy...
We dont get disgusted by the looks of u...
Yes u are pretty indeed...
All the more u could get prettier...
But at the same time we dont wanna put pressure on u...
just consider this...
We dont love u as a friend...
We love u as a best friend...
A close friend i must say...
so jyeah...
if ur happy with ur decision,then we are happy with the path u take...
Take care my good friend...

cant wait for 2morow gym with ma folks

bluuueeekkk!

2009-03-16T00:34:00.003+08:00

i'm feeling sicckkk!!!
bluuueeeekkk!
feel ssooo like vomitting!
OMGAYY!!!
i guess just a 30 sit up on a pull-up bar makes the difference huh...
urgh!
after night exercise?!
wth?!
never felt like this before...
its just too common but this is odd...
tsk

and jyeah am currently happy but my physically not...
guess who makes ma day?
heh...
katie!
hope she doest read this...
heh...
jyeah about her...
ill tell ya'all in details next time aight...
the canadian pizza one...
hahaha....
no offence though...
i promise ill write about ya...
i guess its currently morning there in canada now...
jyeah have a good day!
and yeap...
not forgetting tc...
and dont sleep late again...
heh
like i told you before...
scared?
think that it was me trying to scare you and disrupt ur sleep...
then you wouldnt feel so frighten about...
take care aight..

so now people...
ima post ma blog in ENGLISH...
and i mean pure ENGLISH...
so that this special someone can read it=D!
hehs...
kk thats all about today folks...

Lets DangDUt!

2009-03-14T02:00:00.005+08:00

heh...
updating this blog cause of...
KAKBBY!
haha!
kk...
what can i say?
burok?
no way...
ni modern pey dangdut ehk...
ngan kain...
singlet...
rokok...
both hand occupied...
what can i say?
dangdut uses bum...
GELEK!!!
if kakbby gelek abes uh!
dunia kiamat da beysok!
hehe...
no offence!
huhu...

today apek go gym first time...
so its me,apek,wan,syafiee,nas,shuffy...
shuffy left quite early uh...
haha was planning to go swimming after that beh da tutop...
9pm meh...

yellow!

2009-03-10T19:45:00.003+08:00

haha so this is the few changes ive made within maself over the past few weeks...
haha...
still yearning for 2more packs...
haha...
its so damn hard man...
mr bonch meh...
heehs...

ok let bygones be bygones...
start afresh & move on bby!
huhu...
that's all folks...

tired la seyh!

2009-03-07T00:06:00.002+08:00

whooh!
back from gym with syafiq and azim...
before that badminton training...
omgay so many newbies...
wow!
and im suppose to help em...
grrr...
tkpe uh...
baju napha mah...

haha sempat posing pat cermin toilet gym...
LOL!
will update the pics when found ma usb cable...
LOST!
eerrrgghh!
recalling...
did one set oni seyh...
cause rushing da malam la seyh...
mummy bising!
hahaha...
kk still single...
Hakeem la seyh!
haha...
da ade mood to love back...
cause ive let out ma hidden feelings...
hmmm ini miney mini moo...
who should i go for?
one that are setia arr...
tsk!

k still chatting with this cute gerl uh...
haha...
she brb-ing...
huhu...
kk dont exagerrate...
hmmm...
kakak la seyh!
hahaha...
tkpe kasi chance!
boleyh gtuk ehk?
haha..
kk thats all folks...

huhu

2009-03-01T15:03:00.003+08:00

lol cant believe wth happen to me...
suddenly no mood for love...
hahax...
one week single oi!
unbelievable...
hahax...
kk currently loving ma life...
friends brothers members all backing me up...
studies...
trainings...
napha gold la seyh!
gym training aint for a waste alright...
1.50 per entry and like 3times a week...
4.50 wasted every week...
cut down on smoking...
like tkde mood gtu kans...
currently damn bored...
join ma friends workout...
everyday 100push up and 100 dips...
not forgetting skipping...250
wohoo...
hakeem da 163 la seyh...
awesome...

haha get to know this two hot girls from overseas...
haha thailand and canada...
satu muay thai satu canadian pizza...
hahax...
great to have new friends...
weee!
in fact...
got to know this cute girl laaa...
msn...
haha to be honest tk prasan pun die ade...
then chat chat chat...
i like her personality...
moving on...
that's all folks...

cam boleyh jilat pe?!

2009-02-20T18:10:00.003+08:00

aha...
today was freaking kekek day sia...
lepaks with members pat tamp...
aha...
jumpe pmpuan je member sume cam boleyh jilat pe?!
sial uh!!!
kekek sak...
then bual bird psl malaikat...
no offence though...
ckp pasal...
kaw imagine: malaikat boleyh sepak kaw ehk...
haha...
confirm satu singapore islam sume baek sia...
beh kaw kalaw tak sembahyang kene sepak...
bual psl malaikat pon kene sepak!
sial uh...
mcm mane sia...
try imagine uh...
ok ok...
abeh korang buat baek kene sayang ehk...
kene HUG!
ahahahaha....
confirm "awww soo sweeet"
kan3?!
ahaha...
k hakeem stop...
nanti bnyk bird bunyi...

okay so now im singling...
broke up with bby...
none of the reasons should be stated here...
dont wanna find anymore trouble/problems...
yesaaa im free!!!!
no more jealousy...
no more hurt...
and no more NOT flirting...
just living ma life...
live life to the fullest!
enjoy and have fun!!!
do what you can do as long as ur happy...
that's all folks

F*K IT!

2009-02-19T19:57:00.003+08:00

gueess whhott?
superbly freakin retarding bored la seyh!
ergh!
ccb i wanna go chillin...

alot of stuffs been going through ma mind lately...
trust me u dont wanna know it...
tsk...
cause its dangerous...
haha...
exageratting jek...
really...

i dont wanna be tied at hum...
f*k LA!
let me out let me go la!
ergh!

i'm so going out...
to where?
anywhere...
that's all folks..

No happy ending...

2009-02-16T23:07:00.002+08:00

This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
Then live the rest of our life,
But not together.

Wake up in the morning, stumble on my life
Can't get no love without sacrifice
If anything should happen, I guess I wish you well
A little bit of heaven, but a little bit of hell

This is the hardest story that I've ever told
No hope, or love, or glory
Happy endings gone forever more
I feel as if I'm wasted
And I'm wastin' every day

This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
Then live the rest of our life,
But not together.

2 o'clock in the morning, something's on my mind
Can't get no rest; keep walkin' around
If I pretend that nothin' ever went wrong, I can get to my sleep
I can think that we just carried on

This is the hardest story that I've ever told
No hope, or love, or glory
Happy endings gone forever more
I feel as if I'm wasted
And I'm wastin' every day

This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
Then live the rest of our life,
But not together.

A Little bit of love, little bit of love
Little bit of love, little bit of love[repeat]

I feel as if I'm wasted
And I waste everyday

This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
To live the rest of our life,
But not together...
lyrics of Happy Ending...

emptyness

2009-02-15T15:49:00.004+08:00

i have ma own r/s to settle...
and its gonna be good or bad...
both i dont know...
one thing i know...
things will never be the same again...
i now realise i really do suck in r/s...
no more love guru...
no more helping...
no more lies...
no more truth...
emptyness left...
i dont wanna do this anymore...
i dont wanna be the reason why...
glad that it's over...
it's time to get serious...
it's time to avoid hurting ma bby...
it's time to move on...
that's all folks

Love

2009-01-24T19:46:00.006+08:00

From my Opinion.
What Is Love?
Love is basically feelings form by two human of opposite sex.
They are form by either a crush or a glance(love at first sight).
However,i dont trust that love at first sight.
From my judgement,its just a phrase for people whom trying to gave excuse for e.g.=>Guy:Ily!Girl:how or why?Guy:Love at first sight=D!Girl:okaaayh.
Love is something amazing,something sooo uncomparable to anything in this universe(not including god)it can be describe and elaborate much much further.
Therefore,it is great to love someone.
Love happens all around us.For e.g.
Your Parents,Friends,Brothers,Sisters and so on.
These are so called love but its different when it comes to someone who you dont even know very well or even live with.
Well i'm not describing love from my experience but from what i got from people.
Friends,family,brothers and many more including strangers.
Yes what im trying to say about love is that this love im talking about is different from what our parents are experiencing.
Our parents love is different.
That we will step on ourself in the future through experience.
But for now,Teenagers.
Yes we do love and when we do,we decided to get along.
And when the feelings gone,we broke up.
Wrong.
If you love someone,you will carryon loving till the end.
Your love will remain constant no matter how bad the outcome will be.
You will be ready to face the problem together,Going through ups and downs together.
And being together for a long time.
For most relationships,Straightforward is the best thing to put ahead of them.
Without it nothing can be solved.
For e.g. A girl is dissapointed in her guy and wish not to let him know anything.
The guy ask her but she refuses to tell.
In the end,they almost broke up but guess what?The girl finally told the guy why she decided that its best for them to part.
The guy told the girl what actually happened.
She was relieved and they live happily ever after.
What i'm trying to imply is you should be Straightforward.
If i dont like you i will say i dont like you.
If i love you i will say i love you.
If i hate you i will say i hate you.
and so on...
By telling you hate him/her,he/she would start answering by asking why?
And there is when problem solving comes.
I myself admit that i'm not that good in relationships too.
But from my judgement this is what i came up with.With no Copyright whatsoever.

For crush: you will have this feeling that you love him/her but when something bad bout him/her were exposed.you dont have that feeling anymore.

To those who gave up on love:
I'm afraid you still dont have a relationship,and you never will have until you learn to trust.
I know it's tough,especially if your suspicions have been justified in the past.
That's the reason why you deserve a good relationship now,and you wont get it unless you can deal with the trust thing.
Lick your own wounds for a bit,but then pick urself up,dust yourself off and remind yourself how to enjoy life again.
I seriously dont wanna know what your ex did to you,and how much you think it was all their faults and you behaved impeccably.
It's all in the past and that's not where we are anymore.
Look forward and have a great life,make yourself and the people around you happy,and there will be no time to rake the past unnecessarily.
Morever,you best sort this out quick before your mr right/mrs right comes.
I wouldnt want you to blow the whole thing just because someone in your past was stupid enough to betray you.
Last but not least,I apologise for any mistakes ive made.thanks for reading.

With Love,
Hakeem

Saturday Boresm

2009-01-24T19:26:00.002+08:00

hey yaw folks...
what's up?
dont tell me its the light nor the ceilings...
bored sia!
and when i say bored it means damn bored...
fcuk sia!
bad day yesterday...
ooohhh...
trust me...
u dont wanna know...
-.-"
pfft...
i just wanna say thanks to everyone...
whos helping me and her...
who comfort me and her...
appreciate it loads...
in short,
she dont wanna lose me...
so do i...
thats it...
moving on doesnt help...
hahax...
same with me...
when telling others to move on,
it really is easy,
but try putting urself in that shoe,
trust me u dont wanna move on,
it's like a 10kg rice was glued to ur feet,
u really are struggling...

ok its great that i felt it...
and really,
it was all a misunderstanding...
it wont happen again bby...

zyeah
so,
on friday...
i bought this freaking book that i yearn for almost a week!
awesome!
i bought it and like happy la...
smile all the way to home...
its really hard for me to smile nowadays...
used to like fierce gtu kan...
tapi tak uh...=D!
then peeps talking bout me...
acted like im hearing songs...
haha...tapi tak uh...
heard everything u said bby!
too bad im attched =)
the book is called "The Rules Of Love"
it taught me a lot...
it has 100rules...
so far i read 20rules only...
lol...
like an hour jer...
then tired...
tried to sleep...
problem came...
cant sleep...
finish problem...
book menghilangkan diri!
fck la!
go jb on friday night...
WITHOUT the freaking BOOK!
damn bored la seyh!
now stuck here...
trying to catch up with watever is missing...
tc folks!

Hey folks

2009-01-10T20:30:00.003+08:00

watsup yaw'll...
oh god im damn tired la seyh...
restless too...
urgh!
fuk it...
whole body aching...
ni uh syafiq...
pakse gi gym yesterday...
beh ikot uh...
train sume shitties...
upgrading body=)
beh aching...-.-"
pfft...
hate it...
and jyeah...
stuck at jb again...
finish learning hero songs...
bored la seyh...
donno wat to say nymore...
oouh yeahhh...
one last sentence...
KITE MAWU PERANG!!!
ooouhh yeah bby...
that's all folks...

ily,imy bby,sleep early tonight,dont let the bedbugs bite ya,roar!

Am BacK yA'Ll!

2008-12-26T22:16:00.003+08:00

grrrr...

currently at jb...
stucked here for like almost one week...
with ma ex!
fuck it...
hate her for bsing me...
yet,
she kept ma pics in her hp...
and graffiti of ma name...
wth?
making me confuse...
okayh..
had fun...
Revenge is Sweet Bby!
they slept yesterday...
was snoring -.-"
put ice cream on tha nose,cheeks...
hahax...
know the best part?
she touch her cheeks as if nyamok was there...
and swipe it...
and there the moustache was made...
wakaakakaka...
funny sia...
laughing like hell...
came back...
add bedak(powder) & tissue...
hahahaha!
around 3.am gitu uh...
slept at 5+ missing bby badly...
Grrr...

am i fat?
i think i am...
gettin fatt er...
tsk!
gotta continue training at gym...
guess woot i dreamt?
i dreamt that i became kurus...
tulang!
waaaa!!!
anjat gerl gerl!
eyh!
boy la...
kk ily bby!
that's all folks...

this is for the last time update:

Mummy bought me a new Hp!
wohoo!
Sony Ericsson G705...
huhu...
shocked when mummy msg the day b4 gonna get new hp tomorrow...
didnt believe her in e first place...
but yet,she proved me wrong...
ily mummy!
ur the best!
ouh...
and got a new number too...
line...
how cool is it to get unlimited sms,free outgoing calls within school campus...
AweSomE!
too bad i cant flirt...
with smses...
heehs...
gotta stay setia...
ilysmuch bby!
i've given u a chance to proof me wrong...
earn ma trust back...
please dont break ma heart...
dont u dare...
u know i cant live without u...
P.S:i'll never let u go =D!

things are gettin better...

2008-12-10T16:27:00.001+08:00

jyeah...
guess woot...
im damn bored la seyh...
alone...
at home...
urgh!
ffs...
cant find something betta to do...
owh yah...
blaja piano pun cantek!
toodles...
ily imy bby!

-.-"

2008-12-06T19:34:00.003+08:00

kene write blog ni psl illa...
kasih chance...
tkper...
hmm wat can i say?
im burning up u baybeh!!!

fucking hell i am...
trust me try picking a fight with me right now...
ill fuck u upside down and tell u to fuk off...
and ninabuey cibai!
u dont wanna know...
tsk!

that's all folks

tzzzzzzzzzzz

2008-11-13T17:32:00.002+08:00

mwahahaha...
kekek low...
aru gi maen dota...
standard uh pas skolah...
den pas dota si beylo(aidil),
tanye:keem kaw brani sepak kepale budak ni?
reply uh mesti arh...takdepape uh...
hahax dalam 11 orang sume budak primary uh...
buat bising pat grandlink buat cam rumah bapak dieorang...
wakakkaa...
then kite maen game dare-dare...
spin the guitar pig...
heehs...
first,
shahmi kene dulu...
we ask him to shout at them...
:OI!CAN U ALL FUCKING SHUT UP OR NOT?NOISY U KNOW...
then he do it...
in a nice way =)...
dieorang uat eran tak eran...
haahx...
ma turn...
was ask to sepak kepale dieorang...
so i did it...
haahz...
dieorang teros diam...
beh ckp sorry...
i made up reason uh...
datang teros sepak kepale dieorang then say
WHY U PUSH MY CHAIR?
haahz...
teros sume diam...
muke teros tukar...
hahahaha...
next,
aidil...
he ask they all to get out...
go to them...
ehk u all fucking noisy uh...
get out!
one of the boys melawan...
he said ok ok we all softer...
hahahax...
then he shout...
CIBAI i say GET OUT GET OUT AH!
teros angkat kaki jalan...
wakakakkaka...
that's all folks

Standard!

2008-10-26T17:54:00.002+08:00

bukan takde pc nak blog or wat ok...
standard uh!
malas nak pakai comp...
too busy...
started schooling betol2...
as in pegi full...
then balek...
penat...
tzzzz...
and jyeah its a dead BLOG ur looking at...
dont bother...
juz leave a msg and ill try ma very best to answer a.s.a.p
currently ma tagboard some problem cant reply uhh...
no offence uhh...
jgn marah ye??
k imy bby...
that's all folks

akan ku tungggguuuuuuwuuuwuuuooo

2008-10-18T19:47:00.002+08:00

confused...
hated...
fought-ed...
lost trust...
falsed hoped...
loved...
trusted...
unworthy...
bored...
singled...
pl0xed...
lol-ed...
grrr-ed...
tzzzz-ed...
nta-ed...
kk stop it..
hahax...
nta la...
being treated this way makes me forget you...
thank you...
that's all folks

hey folks...=)

2008-10-12T17:13:00.006+08:00

i love ma shirt mummy bought for me...
heehs...
polo brand...
kene tegor seyh!
je kate dulu aku dapatkn korang barang2 ni sume tak tawu appreciate
skarang aku da tak keje sane lagi nak baju polo...
tsk!
heehs...
yay me!
lolz...
and one more fav is the pokedots!
huhu...
.
..
...
..
.
shuffy wore it...grrr
kasih chance...
tawu pon lawa!
abeh tarok pat friendster!
grrr...
takper..
guo relek...
.
..
...
..
.
fun fun fun going raya and all...
mintak maaf...
its cool =)
then u do it again...
the mistakes...
then next year ade raya lagik...
mintak maaf lagik...
heehs!!!
.
..
...
..
.
i aint posting much these days okay...
so are now...
including friendster...
i rarely touch computer...
guess aint a gamefreak anymore...
tsk!
DOTA!!!
kidding kidding...
kay la...
that's all folks...
Sorry uh pics besar malas nak edit uh>

what a boring day...

2008-09-20T21:47:00.002+08:00

lolz...
today quite fun arh...
boley tahan terok...
standard...
"PuAsE"...
heehs...
beh kene cat gate and window...
lolz...
cabot...
at jb currently...
heehs...
go kipmart...
beli cd...
then makan...
buke..
chickies huhu...
takper tak tengok...

currently playing dota with haikal and fiqo..
2on1...
getting owned...
1on1 of coz i win..
takper try my luck...
tsk!
N0oBs!
nvm...
sabar...

da beli baju raya...
PiNk!!!
huhu!!
that's all folks

palm of the buddhist

2008-09-14T20:58:00.003+08:00

hmmm todaay...
nta?
perang...
haahz kene buddhist palm sia kat blakan badan by dear father...
siket pey saket!!
urgh!
no justice so i fought for it...
but still kena buddhist palm...
oh well parents have to step in when things get outta hand...
they didnt know the matter but they have to step in somehow...
so there goes a buddhist palm...
kene abang first dulu...
followed by me...
haikal next but tak jadi...
abang start first...
he kacaw haikal...
then pulled 2 of haikal guitar strings...
then i fought for haikal...
abang blame me campur budak mane nta...
wth?!
tak maen baju okaay...
singapore isnt that big to have gangsters and gun unlike america/us...
pfft...
i can stand for myself...
fight for my right...
that's all folks...

lifes getting better i guess??

2008-09-13T22:11:00.002+08:00

nothing much to say though...
i guess life getting better without some people i guess?
anywayz...
haahz
syafiq syafiq...
fierce keper...
maen dota ngan some peeps at lan mysia abey syafiq da carik pasal...
lolz quite unfair la...
they peep at our comp...
knowing our location and kill us lol...
syafiq got mad and scold phua cibai...
phua si mei...
i think ar...
hokkien wat stare stare...
lolz...
abey maki...
5vs 3...
5 of them went quiet...
guess i dont have the heart to fight...
so i told em to relax...
its just a game...
dont win anything dont gain anything...
lolz...
heehs...

since *! didnt have the mood for love...
better not disturb her...
kk that's all for today...
hope for the better in future...
that's all folks

things are gettin better...

2008-09-13T05:57:00.003+08:00

well...
i dont know much to say but things are gettin better i guess...
except for the part without her...
okaay i change hoping i could get back to you...
you know who you are...
i wont know for sure until ive tried...
but now is not the time...
people cant change juz for 1seconds...
they need time...
so do i...
my Target will be the same...
no changes...

Jannah:
haaahh...
oi budow!
thanks ehk for that special thingy sh1t...
k ar k ar bukan sh1t maen maen jek...
thanks again for helping to change back...
=))
umm ade something nak bilang taw...
eyh look the sky is so blue!!!

next...

ive read syeedah diaory that day...
i know its diary...
purposely meh...
i shouldnt have...
makes me feel guilty...
shes right...
from the beginning she shouldnt accept me...
others ask for her but she made them teman tapi mesra...
but why she has to accept me?
shes confused...
thats wat she said...
im sorry okay...
i didnt toy with your feelings okay...
i've loved you...
and u will always be remembered okay...
now now...
dont be sad...
stay cool...
stay handsome...
=DD!
friendship last longer than relationship...
ape ape pun...
i'll be there for you...

im exactly where i wanna be now
let the light...shine on yoou...
this is real...this is me...
k stop it sia camprock..
terbawak2...
lolzz...

Jannah:
kk actually bende yang ku nak bilang is kan...

kan...

kan..

kan.

kan

takdepape...
heehs...=DD!

past...

2008-09-11T05:35:00.005+08:00

thats it...
wats past is past...
its over now...
its time for a new me...
a new hakeem...
a new keemo...

been thinking about it...
i should change...
combining the old me and the new me...
ERCU!!!
Erase,Renew,Conclude,Upgrade...
done...
guess a part of me should change...
change for the betta...
not to stay the same...

who am i?
wat am i born for?
wat is my main motive?
wat can i do?
who do i deserve?
who do i love?
why am i here?
question moving like a hurricane in my mind...
in my heart...
in myself...
i juz gotta change...
that's all folks...

twisted,hurt,heartbreaking,backstabbed,confused&lonely

2008-09-10T05:59:00.004+08:00

chameleon changes its colour...
it wont stay at one colour the whole season...
it needs to change colours...
and wow ive seen one chameleon whom juz shown its colours...
a rainbow one if you get what i mean...

omg your stupidity is beyond believe...
i know myself better than you do...
well at least!
if u say so i am trying to hurt her feeling and ditch your so called "babies"
fine go ahead...
but i wont admit myself as i aint the one trying to ditch okaay!
stop trying to say as if your right all the time...
ffs im trying to save their relationship...
from the beginning...
and if ur stupid freaking cannot shut it mouth didnt say it...
this wouldnt happen...
NONE OF THIS!!!
my plan to tell u bout dil and putri is to ask you for tips...
not for you to be a busybody...
i know what im doing ffs!
i made and actually did made aidil forget putri...
and wow you had to come along and spoil everything..
thanks busybody...
now they broke up and hope ur happy for it...
dont say you dont...
cos i know you do...
stop pretending girl...
yes you are trying your best to save their relationship but look what happen?
did you even think of the outcome?
think one step ahead ffs?
NO?
stop trying to save other relationship if you cant handle yours...
and im not trying to be a know it all here...
ThInK AbOuT wAt YoU hAvE DoNe...
did you ever spare a thought about your relationship?
kept on thinking about others...
avoiding doesnt make the love dissapear..
instead it worsen it...
what about him?
do you know how he feel being avoided?
how eager he was TRYing to see you?
oh wow...
and Here and Now...
I wont lose to You...
Never...

Never judge a book by its cover...
Never trust a empty shell...
especially with nothing inside but looks on the outside...
sad to say not to refer you as the one with the looks...
and one more thing...
you said im sombong?
haahz...
me sombong?
one word:Never...

ive broken up with syeedah...
well not because of aidil breaking up with dee...
its because of me...
i need time and space...
to think about what ive done...
to know my mistakes...
to search myself...
to recuperate everything...ANYTHING!
urgh....
well at least i spoken for myself...
i did what i had to do...
i straightforward my feelings...
everything...
and we are friends...
more...
close friend =)...
i wont lose to you as a friend...
stupid shit this anger has to be controlled...
im turning into a better guy...
i hope...
oh god help me...

i hope what your trying to do help me be a better person
and forgive and forget is hard at this very situation friend...
but i will try my very best to do it okay...

sigh..

2008-09-09T20:32:00.002+08:00

today was horrible...
aidil broke up with dee...
omg...
unxpected...
oh well...
hes not the long lasting type...
as far as i know..
never try never know kay...
thanks friend for telling...-____-"

how wonderful it is to know that a person u
trust turns out to be the one ur afraid to trust?
wow...
kay ive tried my very best to save their relationships from
the beginning...
look how gossips and words can make the outcome...
gReAt!
now what??

if ur asking bout me...
idc anymore...
i have no mood for love anymore...
giving her up is like giving up on girls...
jyeah...
someone can mend my heart but it has to be a special someone...
if u ask me who?
i wouldnt careless...

being backstabbed...

wow..

guess we have to experience this at least once in a lifetime...
to trust a friend...
to not keep a secret from someone...
but does that someone keep secret from u?
guess it yourself...
secrets can be found...
and can be heartbreaking especially when it is hidden from u...

and jyeah...
thats all about it about girls...
im soo giving up...=))

-___-"

2008-09-08T20:35:00.002+08:00

baju tnga cuci!!
tadi gado pompuan lawan laki!
gereks per!!!
never had a fight like that since a long time...
haahz...
JANNAH!!!thanks ehk!!!grrr...
.
..
...
..
.
diyana bdae celebration...
kinda late though...
umm...
was sleeping like a sleeping beauty,
then woke up and then mate merah tak tido satu hari...
sod sia otak...
then raudhah tibe2 menjelma pat blakan ngan tepong!
haahz...
dieorang nak sabo dee...
then the so called playmaker(rhaudah)kene tepong ngan aidil uppercut towards the tepong...
protective...
huhu...
then party!
telor sume kwua...
kene telor dari JANNAH!!URGH!
takpe kasih chance...
ade pegi ade baleknye...
hmmm...
pastu ingtkn raudhah yang campak abey nampak kopi kat tepi tergantong bey campak uh...
sorry kay...
didnt mean it heehs...
kk penat giler nak tido!!!

replys...

2008-09-07T16:07:00.000+08:00

okayh watever!!!
-____________________-

2008-09-03T21:31:00.005+08:00

k now what?
urgh!
majok again???
w0w!
u've changed indeed...
guess im not into the new illa then...
sorry...
i dont know anything to say right now...
juz blank...
more of a shocked...
grrr...
chatted...
good news is shes still into me...
bad news is shes changed...
well...
everyone changes...
i guess its time for me to change too...
cish!
gaaah!
thx jannah for supporting =))!
appreciate it lots!
aku pepek sama kamu!!!
heehs...

gereks pe tadi lepaks...
budok...
then send jannah hum...
ade nyonya dalam lori...
smiled at me =DD!
i smiled back...
abeh ckp pat jannah...
kaw tengok ehk ni confirm lambai...
abeh i waved at her...
she waveed back!!!
LOL!
then green light...
bus moving...
cakap lagik pat jannah tengok lagi skali...
she AGAIN waved!!!
wakakakakkaa...
kekek seyh!
dengar lagu fav jannah...
haahz...
pepek...
haah!!!
takla...jkjk...

ade perang tadi...
family kite serang family roy...
pasal memory card epi nye psp...
haikal bawak g rumah roy...
adek roy rondeh2 psp epi kluakan memorycard...
bla bla bla...

then roy was crying...
after kene pukol with his father...
i feel u bro...
sedih seyh...
pasal memory card epi...
epi gi serang rumah dieorang...
ketok pelan2...
tthen tak bukak...
ketok kuat2 pon tak bukak...
then one person from that house came back...
epi and mian was outside...
epi pekik...
agaknye je ckp orang rumah klua skarang!
abeh gado...
fierce per!
epi bual kaw aku ngan mak roy...
aku nak barang aku balek!!lol...
mian-baek tapi tetap kwangajar...
cik cik kite nak barang kite balek...BILER cik BILER!!!??
ahaaz...
i was there all along...
pekik nye pekik...
last last settle...
k bapak roy maki roy sume padehal roy tak bersalah...
its adek roy...
memory card tu dieorang gi pass pass...
grrr...
then semue kene...
kesian tapi gotta learn their lesson man...
then police turon...
haahz kecoh per!!
beh gtg terawei...

after that lepaks...
at pasiris pulak...
mira,wana,fatin(ithink),aan,fiqo,aidil,amirul,ngan lagi satu laki...
donno who...
errr...
gereks ar..
kk thats all folks...

fun fun fun!

2008-08-30T21:17:00.004+08:00

yesterday was fun!!!
huhu...
nyanyi pat stage step singer je...
haahz!
bgss upper sec u rox!
fana betol...
haahz...
gereks per...
sing along session,
waving hands session...
and more!
ily people...

pat bgss pon ade orang tawu maen lagu unfaithful uh...
taught me the second part...
which is as far as he can go i guess...
da almost complete!!!
gaaaahhh!
temptation!
3rd part jer...
fcuk it!
plug keyboard masih ilang...
grrr...
i hate it!

haahz...
try to sing part "sayangku pimpinkan tanganku"
with affections and hand sign...
at her tapi cock up suare!
gaahh!!
1st performance gerek uh...
suare sedap tapi mike low...
2nd performance tak gerek!
she's there,jannah and all the kenss...
suare tak sedap abey mike ok ah...
stupid mike boley buang arh!
suare currently hilang...
puase confirm suare da adenye...

and and...

today go e-hub...
spoil sak!
abey by balek...
went to swamp...
lepaks wif budak tanjong...
fierce kepers?
nak tarik aku?
tak dapat ar siol!
i said im not a fighter...
im only 13 going 14...
wakakakaka!
cos dieorang mau 15,16,17 gituk...
hahahaha...
kenns betol...
try ar sentoh aku...
tak jadi...
takper we had fun...
dieorang ajak ton...
tak jadi cos going jb...
and jyeah...
gi ehub maen arcade...
gerek!!!
maen world of combat...
army tembak2 4players...
marksman kepers...
haahz
gtg...
so long folks...
im winning illa...
idc!
grrr...
kk bubbye

cheebye!!!

2008-08-26T21:43:00.003+08:00

urgh!
keyboard plug hilang!!basketball!!!
baru je nak abeskan lagu better in time...
cume learn 1st part...
pfft!
2nd part tak jadi!
shitties!
bodo pey epi...
asek simpan plug jer!
cos he sux!
juz becoz i played better than him...

liyana:
its true that that song is meant for healing weal and woe...
ape aku meypek!??!
nta?
kk look...
u take care okay...
i dont know whether im getting better in time or not...
but!
i hope u do...
dont forget me as in tottally okayh?
ill always remember u...
no worries...
i think of u everyday too okay...
thinking how u doing?
well...
gdluck in everything okay...
hope u find someone better than me...

back from bgss...
kwang3...
haikal,aidil and roy will be singin this friday(teachers day)
lagu luahan hati and it's all about you...
hahahaha!
kekek low!
mememe not gonna sing...
deifinitely...
heehs...

damn!
this house is soo krem...
barely using it as a hotel...
tempat tido,makan...tu jer...
other than that...
lepak,outz searching for chicks...
not me ey!
its ma broz...
im juz sticking with them...
satu da cukop...
tu pon tak taw terjage ke tak...
ape lagi bnyk2!
cish!
takper...

ahaa...
bolo pey jannah...
nak tolak orang pat ujan je sendiri kene...
abey stockin basah...
plus bawu...
heehs...
eeeexxxaaaaaggggeeeerrrraaattttiiinngggg siket jer....
tnga lapar sebat je dienye mee...
oooohhh seddaaapppp...
free!
and and chocolate cake!
wooooooo...
sedap...
standard ar kene maen catching dulu aru dapat...
pelokeks betol!!
tanam ar!!
heehs..

abey balek wif bby...
zzz...
majok je..
majok balek ar...
huhu...
takper...
forgive and forget ey?
except for someone!
heehs...
got a hug...
sengaje anu kuat2 kan saket kan??
padan muke!!!
kekekeke...
tak la...
main2 jer...
heehs...
standard ar...
kate boi keemo...
bukan boi insane eh...
tu da terlalu insane...
no hearts feelings...
ilym u diam!nitez...
ngantok ar...
10pm da ngantok...
ape nak jadi?

All is revealed...

2008-08-09T22:56:00.005+08:00

yesterday was fun!...
celebrate national day pat b.g.s.s
abeyh cam biase arr...
muke tak taw malu...
its a matter of kciao or not kciao...
pat tingkat 3 wave hands bile lagu muneru valiba klua!
fuyoo!!
malay dance!
power!!
sajak siol jadi one of the indians...
same seyh...
met up with below,jannah,rhaudah and linda next at coffeeshop
kwang kwang kwang!
jannah fierce siol!!
je nmpk khairul teros bla...
abey menyesal...
pe saje tah!
naseb baek aku yang console die(khairul)...
da bagos aku tak CON die...
haahz...
kk tkper kasih chnce...

then lepakz wif linda and below...
suroh ajar jumpstyle...
mak!
kene pakse sia ajar jumpstyle...
sedih...
tkper...
i really am not that good ya know...
juz ok ok jer...
and jyeah!
ade orang tu terase seyh yang orang pat sini nak pimpin tangan dier...
padehal nak salam jerk...
abey nak bodoh2kan jer...
heehehs...
dont take it to the heart okay?
am sorry ya know...
oopss...
ter PAUTO...
sayang u la...

jannah:
bebual ngan jannah on phone...
wek wek!!
console lagikk...
dari nangis ley ketawe...
sape tah ajar!
Kan da KeNe 5 chapter...
i think its beeecccaaauuuussseee ...---...!
hahahahahahaz!

oh yeah...
then kan then kan...
errr...
broken up with liyana...
sedih =(...
didnt mean it like that okay...
i had to straightforward...
if i kept on acting as if i dont love u then it would certainly break ur heart...
nevertheless mine...
im sorry...
and its 100% ok not 60%...

eyh...
then there came in my mind...
which one to go?
illa or below?
urgh!
illa:
i dont think it suits for us to go together anymore...
not after wat happened...
i dont trust u anymore...
im sorry...
i know its difficult...
but hey!
ur not the only one okayy...
grrr...
today is 9th of august...
national day...
jyeah...
not forgetting our should be 1st year anniversary...
but too bad it has to be this way...
uve played with my heart...
how could i go on and be played?
tell me?
forget it...
ur not the only one sad okayy...

if its not for inna i would be played all along...
thanks inna!
sayang kaw!as bestfriend jer...
and dont blame inna okayy...
if inna didnt told me u already had a bf then i would been fooled...
dont give me bullshit bout trying to cover urself by using the name liyana...
it ended somehow...
btw inna aku da link kaw...=))

dam sleepy sia...
and not feeling well...
maybe bnyk sngt scoobydoo...
grrr...
tkpe...

In The End...
It all land to the below...
haiz...
nak go ke taknak go?
nta?!
abang je!!!!
cam tak baek siol...
abang die aku pey brother...
aku pey jiwe...
jiwe rambot,jiwe hati,jiwe segale2nye except keemo okayy..=))
kwang kwang kwang!
aku suke die!
eeehhhkk!!
sayang?
nta!!!
grrr...

most of all!
thanks jannah for being there when i need someone...
=DD!

that's ALL about the truth folks...
thanks for reading...